The Unsolved Issue

To whom this may concern:
In 2016 I'm trying to be more positive. I'm still in that phase that I'm still figuring out what I should do in life and how I'm still trying to improve myself.

But is my effort enough?

I'm one of those people that even though I do some 'sorting out and buang' old stuff, it will take me forever to be doing just a portion of those stuff. And I guess those stuff will still be there in the end. Thus, it looks like I didn't do any clearing up stuff.

Macam tak nampak pun perbezaan.

Just like what I'm trying to overcome right now;

I need to do more cooking, yes, niat:
Masak sebab...? Kena masak untuk diri, kena masak untuk suami, kena masak untuk anak-anak nanti, kena save money by cooking at home instead of going out to eat.

Dahtu kenapa tak belajar lagi masak? Ini penting okay.
Hmm. Honestly, idk why. I mean, I wanted to. Why is it so hard? Dah betulkan niat...Now, take action lah.

I need a plan, of what I should do....

I guess that I don't know where to start/

I guess that's why I'm still not married. Sapa yang nak wife takreti msaak. basic apa pun tak reti?

I know my apologies don't worth anything to you. But I just need to say that. Saya akan buat but it takes time,

I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment.
-Amelia