Awkward Raya 2012

First and foremost, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims.

This Raya made me wonder..Why do we celebrate Raya? What is the purpose? What Hari Kemenangan?

All I know is that its not supposed to be what I'm experiencing this Raya.

Kena bermaaf-maafan. I don't think I apologised with enough sincerity. I mean, tahun lepas mmg jejak kasih lah dikatakan. Macam anak branak dah lama dipisahkan pastu minta maaf sbb gaduh in the first place. But this year...mana semangat tu?

Is it really because you are growing older and that Raya magic suddenly goes away? No bunga api? No ketupat pulut? Is that it?

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*awal di pagi Raya*

Everyone wondered, "Mana dia? Nak salam raya pastu nak tangkap gamba keluarga ni."

"Oh, tadi nampak kat dalam kereta."

"Kenapa? Dia nak keluar ke?"

"Entah lah. Macam tgh tgk hp ke ipad ke apa tah dlm kereta tu."

*sampai rumah saudara nak beraya*

"Eh, tadi nak keluar kereta, ingatkan dia dah keluar jugak."

"A'ah laaa. Dia cari tmpat parking elok2 kot."

-bilaa dah lama sgt, baru laa dia masuk rumah saudara ni-

"Jauh sgt ke parking tadi tu?" *nada sindir* 

*dalam rumah saudara*

-saudara ajak bersembang, dia buat sombong-

What am I saying here? I don't know the correct term or the expression to say. 

I never like thinking bad about a person. 

Ummi pesan, tak baik buruk sangka.

If you are in my shoes, what would you feel?

bukan ke dah cerah lagi bersuluh?

What would you feel if that someone does that, described up there, 

and that someone is related to you?

Pastu cepat-cepat nak balik rumah. Bkn ada apa kat rumah tu. Ada ke?

Kesian nenek duduk sorang kat kampung. Apa salahnya kalau tinggal sehari lagi kat kampung nenek?

Dah sampai rumah, laju je keluar rumah.

I get it. 

Kalau tak nak raya dgn kami, JUST DON'T. 

GO AWAY. 

GO AWAY.

GO AWAY.

GO AWAY AND TAKE ALL YOUR STUFF. 

I'M NOT OKAY WITH THIS.