His dad passed away

Ya Allah, kuatkan lah hatinya. Bimbinglah jiwanya. Semoga dia dapat menerima semua ini.

Wafi, be strong. I'll be here for you. I'm sorry sayang.

I know he's a great dad and you love him very much.

Thanks Encik Othman for letting me be with Wafi

Dentist call kot ?

Well, i realize that i am paranoid. the number bukan sekolah yang call. number sekolah laen dari yg misscall ari tuh. but who called to be exact ? what are the odds of having a mysterious miss call on the same day that probably the teachers are calling you from the school's office, after they caught your boyfie's hp that full of messages from you? either way, i am so relieved.

haha, panic je lebih.

maybe there is a good thing having him 'handphoneless' haha. now, Wafi started to talk to me at school. well, he blushed, i blushed. we blushed. it was a cute moment. then he get a bit gagap which is cute, okay ? i gagap jugak ;)

he says, 'sunyi' takde hp. sapa suroh bawak hp ke sekolah ! :D

i miss getting messages from him

aww Bainaa :)

Seriously, babe. i love you. dulu masa kita sama sekolah pun tak serapat ni. i mean, this proves that we can be close even if we are far from each other. you are like a star. shining brightly and always be there for the moon at night. :)

its not that i don't trust anyone here at kuching. its just that i am more comfortable talking to you about my love life and anything related to it. thanks for being a good listener. :)

Bainaa, my sayang

I'm innocent. really.

Seriously. He is the one who brought his hand phone to school. Then got caught. Kena rampas. Then when I reached home, I got 2 miss calls apparently from school's office. Damn la u.

Now, I bet the school's gonna call me to the counselor's office tomorrow and "talk" or should I say, being interrogated. Either way, I hope everything will work out soon. I'm telling myself "What's the worse that could happen? They'll call my parents, and guess what, my mom knows about him already and his parents knows about me already. "

Its all to calm me down, but guess what ? I am not calm. This is not the way I planned my last year of high school would be. I bet the teachers would look at me in a weird way now.

Maybe I'm just being paranoid ?
Pray that they'll let me go lightly

Dear God II

I know that I shouldn't actually love something more than I love You. Astagfirullah. I don't want to love someone more than I love You. Ya Allah, help me become stronger everyday to overcome these feelings. Ya Allah, let him see that no love is greater than Your love.

Pulang kakak ku pulang

yeah, she's here, we watched movie. me, my mom and my sis, lol Girls Night Out. it turned out okay. I missed her.
I wanna watch Eclipse but it was sold out ! :( bummer.

Lies

Do you promise to tell the truth and only the truth ?
-Yes

I'm scared that if I continue on with this relationship, I'll get pretty much distracted and couldn't study well. I know, I'm giving this a try. but what if I accidentally follow my parent's footsteps and hurt him? I don't wanna do that. ever. Am I really gonna take this risk, on him?

I mean, I am his first gf. ever. and he cherish me so. I love him, but I'm scared that I'll leave him someday and couldn't do any of those things we've planned.
I don't want to get so attached, then leave with tears. I don't wanna go through that phase again.
tak nak pindah. not yet.
D:

hey mister mister

I do

Received a text message:

"in the future, and i've become a mas pilot, had sent my family to Haji, would you be my 'Teman Seumur Hidup' ; would you marry me ?"

9.52PM 17.07.10

♥
wafie my boyfie

Everyone knows :O

His parents knows about us ! He told them. They're being so supportive. like, whoa. idk if it is a good thing or a bad thing. I mean, if this relationship has involved parents, it means that everything is official. Its not like i don't want to get official. Its just that, I'm bloody scared if things don't work out and I would put to blame. and I hate guilt. Guilt is pure EVIL. haha

also, Mahathir, Mackenzie, and Azlan knows about it too. They saw Waaafi smiled (his oh-so-charming-smile) at me in class and suspected something.

Therefore, I must tell Ashley sooner or later, or else, well, total chaos. I hate it when Ashley is like in a bad mood. and when she hates someone. Its always filled with rage. I'm scared of those rage. and I didn't mean to not-telling her about it, but is just the topic hasn't come up yet.

OHMYGAWD.

Dear God

Dear God, aku lalai setelah mengenali dia. aku sering lupa. Ya Allah, bantulah diriku untuk menyintaiMu lebih dari apa pun. Please don't get me too distracted. Kuatkan lah cintaku padaMu seiring dengan cinta akan RasulMu, ibu bapaku serta dia(jika kami sudah di tentukan untuk bersama). Janganlah berikan diriku lalai.
Ya Allah, bukakan lah hati ku untuk mengenali agamaMu dengan lebih mendalam.

Jealous

Yes, this is the feeling that usually comes after being with a partner. I am jealous 'cause the fact that he is mine ( well, yes ) but no one seems to know about us and that some other girls tend to be really close to him. really close. well, maybe I'm exaggerating a bit. but I debated with myself that probably, possibly that he is usually like that, even before we were together. but that is no exception ! and I don't wanna be a bad gf by telling him to stay away from his friends (aka the girls).

anyways ! he read that post on fb ! the one that me and Baina talked about ice creams and that our boyfie should treat us ice creams of our choice. haha, then he texted me.

"Lpas spm, insyaallah kita pergi jalan k. ambik lesen lok. you want to choose your fav ice cream don't you ?"
♥

wafie my boyfie

it feels nice to say that ;)

Love is in the air

I looked around aaaand couples everywhere. whoa, guess we're not the only ones. kan, sayang ?
here's the thing. we didn't go around and tell everyone that we're together. It'll be our little secret.
Which I've only told one person : Baina ♥ .

No one has to know. as long as we both know ;)

Happy Birthday to Ummi and the 4 kittens !

Its ummi's birthday ! Muffin, our cat gave birth to 5 kittens as a present to Ummi.
HAHA
Its such a wonderful day !
I'll upload pics once I get a nice shot of them. comel lah beb !

cintaaa ;)

what can i say ? you made me believe in love again. i love you for that.

*i suka tengok mata you.
->ye ke ? bila pulak you tengok mata i ?
*you tak perasan ke?
->takpun -.-
*i selalu curi pandang nak tengok mata you. bila you toleh, i cepat2 tengok tempat laen.
-> ^___^

LOL, i translated his bahasa sarawak to our normal malay ;)

mek sayang kitak eh.

i started to smile often again ;) everything happened so fast ! it all started last Tuesday, 29.06.2010. his birthday.

Change is directly proportional to time.

Do you still remember the old faces that is in your memory ? The ones that you thought they'd play a minor role in your life. Do you ever thought what would happen to them now ? I mean, they are somebody that actually got you smile once upon a time ago. or they had got you cry about the most silly things. Either way, they are important. Why? 'cause they are involved in your life even you like it or not. These memories are bittersweet.

There's someone in my memory. Before, she is this, slightly overweight girl, almost little people associate with her. well, let me tell you now that she looks anorexic and great, actually. she has a new hairdo and of course wardrobe. Never underestimate the power what make up would do.
Long story short, she looks awesome.

See how time could change you?

text. send.

Texting with him is awesome. time flies easily. idk where it flies to but it just sorta poof away. Let me rephrase that; Time poofs away whenever he appears in my mind. I'm loving it !

well, he says he has something to tell me. but only when the time is right. OH MY GOSH. tell me now laa ;)

Chocolates makes everything better ;)

Really. I gave him chocolates as a birthday present. Yes, its a bit late to give him a pressie since his birthday was on Tuesday.

Early in the morning I asked Cindy to give the chocolate to him. I'd faint before I could do anything so its better to let Cindy do it. well, he took it and thank me at the end of the day. there were sparks, the way he had said my name. and oh, I smiled and felt myself blushing ;)

I'm loving every moment. yes, McDonalds, I'm loving it !