Assalamualaikum 2014

*fireworks*
I guess its a little bit too late to wish a Happy New Year to you guys? haha
New years was in the middle of finals. So, I dare not contemplate on the things I did in 2013 on midnight.
Basically, I delayed my New Years after my exams. Boleh ke? Yeshhh 'cause I'm a wizard.

It's Time by Imagine Dragons.

If you see this post : Dear 2013, I have 7 things to achieve and maintain last year.
I achieved 5 /7 of those things. Yeay~~~~~~~squiggly lines

I scrolled and saw my old posts and smiled. Wow, that's everything that had happened in 2013. I'm sure there's more that wasn't documented. Either way, I'm proud of myself. I deserve a pat on my back. Hehe.

I realised that in the year of 2013 I keep on rediscovering myself again and again. I try to read more and eager to learn more. I am not just that average girl. I finally have a clearer view on my dream. Just in 2013, I changed my dream for 3 times. Gila? Taklah. We are inconsistent. That's why we're human. I make mistakes. I feel these mixed emotions and feelings and desires. And I'm proud to be a girl name Nora Amelia. Embracing yourself much? (:

So, what did I learn in 2013 ?

1. I learn to enlarge my dream and invest in myself and the things I love. Enlarge your dream as big as you can and engrave it in your heart. Insya'Allah, Allah permudahkan.
2. I learn that everything will be okay when you talk to Allah. 
3. I learn to listen better. Listen to things that people are trying to say by their expressions and actions. Listen to nature. Basically, I learn to observe and use my senses as well.
4. I learn that whatever you do, do it as if its your last time. After I learn this, I hugged Ummi and my sisters a little longer and more often. What can I say; I'm a hugger.
5. Count blessings everyday.
6. I found courage. I didn't backdown. We won UNESCO Debate.
7. I learn to be rational and buy things only when we need to. Appreciate more.
8. I like ice skating. I plan to indulge myself in the things I love a little bit more. Bowling, Writing, Reading, Rock Climbing? Lets try that.

Alhamdulillah. That's basically the brief summary of what I learn.

What do I hope to have in 2014?

Happiness.

Well, basically I want happiness everyday in my life all year round. This is basically what I want to be when I grow up. I want to be happy. What do I wanna do when I grow up? I want to give confidence to people with their appearances and help them embrace themselves. That's what I wanna do. Occupation will not define who I am. I define myself.

Your time starts now, Amelia. 

Thoughts on 'Thoughts'

These few hours I’ve been inspired by these thoughts and wonderful ideas that just made me even more excited about life and all around.

Instead of being depressed and trying to find the true meaning of life, why don’t you just go and live that life and question the whole world on things and how they’re done. Life isn’t going to give you a one sentence text like, “Life is finding joy”. Life doesn’t have a phone to call or text you to even converse.

Life is going to be a compilation of answers when you ask that question to the world “Why?”. And you won’t know that true meaning of your life…when you don’t ask those questions. Duh. You know I was going to say that, right?

And this is the problem of the mentality of people, they don’t ask questions; they receive and accept everything without any doubt that it might be untrue in so many levels. 

Though most of you have heard or known about this, I’ve known and accepted this fact. But I never actually apply it in my daily life. It’s not that I wanted to unquestion things but it’s because of unpracticed methods in my conversations and arguments lead me to accepting everything. Making me naïve to most stuff.

Yet, sometimes you know you’re right and you don’t want to go through all that fight and throwing spineless words. Unnecessary things are basically unnecessary. 

Though in debate, you’ll find people finding facts (or creating facts) just so they could know who has the greater opinion on things. They gave words with spine that could stand tall. Frankly, debating is not a fair game to play. The “so-called” winners of the debate is being judged or adjudicated by people who may or may not be on your side. They win because you’re so good at convincing people or do you win because the jugde is on your side? Who are you to judge? See how I’m making things feel pointless and insignificant? What matters most is your own opinions and your own opinions are beautiful as it is. That does not change who you are. So, don’t.

I know my words and sentences may be messy. That’s just how my unedited mind works. It brings out ideas and pop into this blog that you’re reading. Hoping that you’ll be able to relate how my mind works. Disagree on my thoughts? Maybe I should go read your blog and find ways to relate to it. How are humans having same organs like brains and other body part be called similar when we all have different minds and opinion on things? 

Oh I love the irony. We are technically the same but with different minds which makes us an individual with different aspirations in life.

Amelia

7.45pm 11th January 2014

*Inspired by Tavi Gevinson, Logan LaPlante and Jacob Barnett.

Dominant

Hey awak.
I know I may not be the best that I am. Tapi all your jokes are getting dry and on my nerves. I am never good at giving comebacks but it’s never a given permission for you to push my buttons.

Maybe being too comfortable is getting uncomfortable.

A day has not pass without a dry comment from you about anything that intimidates me. Yes, I’m quiet because I take the high road and let you win. But the fire in me is burning and I can’t find the water to put if off. Sometimes you have to find something to let the steam off.

al-Hijr, 47

Alhamdulillah, Allah bagi ujian. Sabar. Think happy thoughts. Unicorns and Rainbows.
Amelia

Proud

This semester’s final exam is like, much much better than last finals. This time, I have more time for me to study and to review. No more messed up days in study week or even exam days. Alhamdulillah I’m so grateful.

During exam week, me and Along went home and spent (just) two days at home. Huhu. Anyways, Ummi was about to throw out or give away her clothes when she has this burden to let go of them. For a girl who likes vintage stuff, I hop to the opportunity to try out the clothes. Obviously they fit nicely on me.

So, I promised Ummi that I’d take a pic of my outfit each day of exam so I could show her the clothes. Rasa macam fashion show tapi pakai sebab sendiri suka bukan sebab menunjuk. Basically, its exam week, no one would judge whatever it is that I’m wearing as long as its presentable.

Sejak dari kat Asasi lagi that I like to wear my Ummi’s clothings and say, “Ni baju mak saya”. Whee. Honored and very proud to wear those baju.

Can’t wait to wear Ummi’s next outfit. Hehe.

Yes, I'm silly.
Wait, no. I'm Amelia. (: