Perlu ke mengamuk? 2

So, at the end, aku keluar jugak sebab kebetulan ada kwn aku ni nak keluar jugak. Aku puas main bowling hari tu. Hopefully its enough to get selected for Shahbandar? :3


Anywayy, we ate KFC afterwards. I ordered the colonel burger set which was oh so small. Gosh.
Tiba-tiba teringat kat Wafi. Sebab? Ada satu pagi Sabtu ni, 5 Emerald ada kelas Addmath. He came early, I guess, breakfast kat KFC. Then, before I left the school grounds, somebody gave me a burger.
Pastu bila tgh makan depan TV kat rumah, Ummi kata : "Mana dpt KFC tu? Kita tak singgah pun mana-mana tadi."
Haha, this is what I told her : "Teacher baik hari ni, dia bagi burger." Well, ummi tak tanya dah lepas tu. haha logik ke cikgu baik sgt sampai nak belanja KFC?

And that was when my mum haven't known about him. And I guess, I'm kinda glad that I told her about Wafi. Maybe she knows that I'm serious about him. So after that, she didn't bothered to ask anything suspicious. Because she knows. and oh, muka bangga gila bila bagi tahu Ummi, Wafi bagi tudung pink on my birthday last year and she just smiled. :)

Perlu ke mengamuk?

Ada makhluk Allah ni suruh aku teman dia pergi Giant. Tapi aku dah tahu tujuan dia. Lepas sampai, dia pergi dgn teman dia, tinggal aku. Aku pun jadi malas nak keluar hari ni. Aku cakap la memang aku tak pernah confirm nak keluar pun. Ikut keadaan. Aku nak keluar pun sbb ada makhluk sorang lagi ajak main bowling.


Yang makhluk sorang lagi ni, semalam dia bad mood, macam tak jadi pergi je? Aku tak kesah pun. Serius, you weren't harsh lah. Everyone had a bad weekend. Mine wasn't that great too. No hal lah. Aku nak keluar pun kalau kwn2 yg lain nak keluar. Tak kan lah aku nak duk main bowling dgn dia sorang? Gila. Aku pun tak nak. Ummi marah. Wafi pun mesti  marah. Tgk muka ni, nampak boleh jaga diri baik2 ke? Haih -.-


So perlu ke makhluk yang pertama tadi, menghempas hempas barang , tutup loker sampai nak hancur ? Lepas tu menangis duk atas katil. Tunggu sampai aku kata aku nak outing jugak?

And bukan ke hari tu kau dah jumpa teman kau tu? At least dpt jumpa. Aku dah tak jumpa Wafi lebih setahun, dia tak call aku tiap2 malam pun. Tak macam kau dgn dia. Mlm2 ada je org call, dpt je nak keluar dgn dia kalau kau balik rumah. Aku? Takda pun.

Sabar je~

Ayam Masak Merah

"1st syarat mak and kakak mek is : isteri mek mesti pande masak."

Syarat lain? Ada lagi tak? :3

Wow, hidup kita berbeza kan? Your family is like, always eating at home, together. Home-cooked meal. Never go out to eat.

Mine? Well, in a week, tak semestinya ada sekali pun Ummi sempat masak. and I'm afraid to go and experiment in the kitchen. I live off from eating outside food. I'm used to that. I know, its never healthy that way. I'm not healthy. I'm sorry I'm not perfect.


And you remembered the promise I made to myself, that I'll marry the guy that will make me try cooking, not by force, but willingness of my heart. I think that guy is you. :) Just that I'm not sure if its yummy to eat?

Macam mana lah ni?

Me? or pilihan kakaknya?

Well
Macam teacher Azian kata : A problem is not a barrier if you make it as a trigger. A driving force for you to do more and more, better and better each day. Its all on how you see it. Its a challenge, so grab it!
I can do this, I can do this, I can do this. Oh God, help me?

Little

I can't believe I cried because of the little things? 

Hempas hp? Pastu senyum?
Gila apa.

Without me

Now this looks like a job for me
so everybody just follow me
cause we need a little controversy
cause it feels so empty without me

Rest

Mlm Ahad I slept at 11pm woke up at about 3am and stayed up until morning. which I don't mind doing every day because I needed to complete my assignments anyway. and its quiet and better to do it in the morning. 


Then I have that English drama and when we performed, I forgot my friend's line and made the drama short-- I feel bad. She was looking forward for that line. Penat je dia hafal :( and it was all my fault. 


I dragged myself all day, then I slept that evening after Maghrib for about 15 mins. It was a good rest. and I still haven't have the chance to lie on my bed. Please, don't tempt me. I don't need sleep, I know I don't. I can't pamper myself. Kau tak layak, tau tak? 

I'll sleep when I die.

Happy

If you google image for "Happy", you'll find bunch of smileys, cartoons and happy birthday pictures. Humans? There aren't any. Because who could really capture happiness? Even actors couldn't do that. 

I guess what I'm saying is, not a lot of people are happy. and they are simply hard to capture.

Jgn lupa

Maybe I was over reacting on the "can't do it on time" thing. Its nothing compared to the real future, the real world.


Macam Wafi kata:
"mun ktk xpat lepas apa yg ktk ada time tok, camne ktk akan lepas pada masa hadapan? adakah ktk akan lari jak?"
*apabila Wafi bersuara*


The future will be tougher and my mindset must be ready for it. I know I wont be alone in this. Eveyone is there to support me. I have all the wonderful people I need. I am content. Thank you Allah :) Thank you Wafi.

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Strive, Struggle but don't Stress out - My new motto

and that's what I wrote for my motto in the profile. Whee, my part is half done for the magazine. Now, we wait for the pengumpulan data, wartawan and photographer do their thing before we do the editing TOGETHER.


Yes, we have the whole team with us. YEAY.


*tepuk dada* All iz well. All iz well.

TRIGGER // BARRIER

Don't take those problems as a barrier, but as a trigger to your success. 


This week is packed, full, occupied.


Hari Kerjaya then Choir and then Submission for Ridaksi cover ++ presentation for every subject. Gosh. 
But thank God we are done with the Jualan Hari Kerjaya and Choir. umm yang lain? We'll see, okay?


Even I've posted my status as "Don't give up." But my mind keep telling me to give up. To end this, end my life. Stupid stupid thing to think about. But to tell you the truth I can't think of any other way but that one for a moment.

Pray for me

When I need you the most

I can't say I'm sad or angry. Just that, it never occurred to me that I could feel angry at someone but I just couldn't express it to that person. I'd cry, I'm so weak. Pathetic. Toughen up, Amelia! Stand up! Straighten up that back bone.

And the worse part of all, I can't tell anyone about it. 

Never enough

Names

He was being so adorable. 

Tiba-tiba gave me a link, 

then we began telling each other which one do we love.

He made me smile, he made me laugh.

I love you. I haven't told you enough. 

late-to-be-early,

amelia