Patah

You told me,
you're watching out for me
you care for me
even when things go rough

Because I'm as delicate as a bud
fragile and weak
when storm comes through
I'll break, I'll fall

You're the strength
but absence takes place

Where's the shoulder to lean on?

The only girl in the world

At last

He texted me saying he just got his phone back after it was fixed, virus.

I mean, I'm super glad that he wasn't doing anything to avoid me. but virus or no virus, things are not the way like we were before.

When we were very much new in the relationship, we just couldn't take our eyes off each other until at some point my classmates teased us. I didn't mind at all. I loved his attention to me. The feeling when I am with him would be, like I'm the only girl in the world ( sorry, Rihanna. I am the only girl in the world in his eyes :D ) . I missed being chased around by him with his video cam. When the school year was almost over, I stopped avoiding his cam, and smiled a lot. I asked to look at the pics. Then we took pics together during biology. ;) It was all I could ask for. I love you.

The sad part would be, I don't have the copy of those wonderful snapshots. :(

Now, being million miles away from him, I get paranoid. He adds a lot of girls on fb. Dah la semua yang seksi and gorgeous. Then chats with this junior from our school, he claims that they're like brother and sister. Well, aku tahu bila dah jadi abang adik pun boleh jadi yang lain la. Trust me, I know.

I'm not saying I don't trust you. I don't want to take the risk to lose you. I just cant. So, I'm sorry if this hurts you, but it hurts me.

Don't you get it? I stayed away from my guy friend, that I known since form 1, so you don't get jealous. Please, please don't do this to me.

I don't feel like the only girl in the world anymore.

Hi, I'm a jerk

I hate myself. I'm paranoid. as if he is avoiding me. Well, NO, NORA, HE'S JUST BUSY. okay.

Somehow there's a tiny feeling in me that makes me say, I'm jealous. I'm a control freak, apparently.

Deep inside me makes me feel like there's something going on that I don't know. I mean, I don't know...just a hunch, I guess. Ugh -____________-"



I trust you.

baby, i could feel you're slipping away.
and i'm trying to get a grip on your hand
but i can't even reach for it :(

Eyes: puffy , Nose: red

I never knew taking a long shower could help you a lot. Well, you get all fresh after the shower AND you don't have to worry about holding back your tears.

I realized two things (while in the shower) :
One, I hate the feeling that people are pushing me aside and I don't know anything about them anymore.
Two, Shouting something that is opposite from what you really feel, kinda make you wanna cry.

So, when they asked about the unusual puffy-ness of my eyes and the red nose, I'm just gonna say;
"I think its my allergic".

Yeah, I'm allergic to dishonesty and awkward silences.

I miss you, teddy. Where'd you go?