The Unsolved Issue

To whom this may concern:
In 2016 I'm trying to be more positive. I'm still in that phase that I'm still figuring out what I should do in life and how I'm still trying to improve myself.

But is my effort enough?

I'm one of those people that even though I do some 'sorting out and buang' old stuff, it will take me forever to be doing just a portion of those stuff. And I guess those stuff will still be there in the end. Thus, it looks like I didn't do any clearing up stuff.

Macam tak nampak pun perbezaan.

Just like what I'm trying to overcome right now;

I need to do more cooking, yes, niat:
Masak sebab...? Kena masak untuk diri, kena masak untuk suami, kena masak untuk anak-anak nanti, kena save money by cooking at home instead of going out to eat.

Dahtu kenapa tak belajar lagi masak? Ini penting okay.
Hmm. Honestly, idk why. I mean, I wanted to. Why is it so hard? Dah betulkan niat...Now, take action lah.

I need a plan, of what I should do....

I guess that I don't know where to start/

I guess that's why I'm still not married. Sapa yang nak wife takreti msaak. basic apa pun tak reti?

I know my apologies don't worth anything to you. But I just need to say that. Saya akan buat but it takes time,

I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment.
-Amelia

Age

My sister just turned 24 today.

And guess what, I'm turning 23 in 10 months time. I can't believe I'm turning into those people who can't accept that they're growing a year older every year.

In addition to that, I'm in a relationship with a guy that's younger than me. A year younger but yet seem more mature than I am. How is that possible?

I mean, I don't mind that I'm older but I guess it does bother me a bit in the pit of my heart. The fact that he has more experience in life makes me feel like I don't have to worry much, though. We'll make it work somehow.

This is a short one but I'll keep on writing later. I miss writing here. Plus, its a new year and this blog's background is looking kinda old. Really need a make over.

Till we meet again.

-Amelia

New ?

On behalf of 1st January, I wish you all a happy new year.

We didn't celebrate or anything. Heard fireworks out the window but never peeked to see where it comes from. I guess its different now. But I was never the one to be excited on new years. I never waited for midnight for count downs. The most interesting part of New Years is the fireworks; yet I wasn't a slight excited for it this year. Why?

Kerja.

I slept on the sofa on New Years Eve. Fell asleep at 11.30pm and woke up brightly at 2am. What's wrong with my bio clock anyway?

Wait, did I say kerja? No, no. I meant, practical training. hah. No gaji no cuti. Don't do your LI here guys. You can't even go out after 7pm.

Tapi ada hikmah.

I found him.

I'm not trying to sound like I'm absolutely in love or something. But he's different.

This guy. He's not rich. He's not even model-face handsome. But I can see behind all that nakal act, he is nice and he knows what he wants to do in life. That's what I want in a guy; a guy with goals.

Don't get me wrong. Amir was the nicest most sweetest guy ever. I don't deserve him.
Amir pampered me too much that I didn't even bother to try to improve myself after terlebih manja. I can't be someone I want to be when I'm with him. Don't good relationships are supposed to be like when one encourages the partner to better themselves? Well, I hope with this Johorean I'll be able to be someone I want to be.

He already taught me to stick to my roots. Be humble. Be generous. Have plans in life. And make sure I stick to them. So, here's my own assignment to myself: Financial Plan and Life Plan.

Semoga dipermudahkan semua urusan akad nikah naik pelamin dengan Zaheir Al Bakry. Im not jumping into new relationships too fast, kan? Hmm. Kalau dah jodoh.

Talk to you guys later then.
-Amelia