Sorry, abang

I remembered when there's this kakak at the driving school. She asked if I have my own 'abang'. I told her all my siblings are girls, then she said "bkn abang tu, abang pakwe lah." . I just smiled whenever I thought of him. I don't wanna let you go 'cause you have my soul.

I'm being insensitive and a total jerk to him. I cried a little bit because I'm shaking, scared that I ruined what we had. I love him so and writing down here what I felt is not enough. I am deeply sorry, abang.

Nama ?

Aleesya
Elisya
Arif
Nadia

I'm just racking my brains for names. For what? I don't even know. Or do I? HAHA

When in doubt

Think of all the wonderful things you did together.
Just remember,
he went to meet your family because he loves you.
he basically waited for you.
he has that smile that could light up the dark world you live in and do whatever it takes to make him keep smiling. I am afraid of the dark.
when life gets tough, he steps in and say, "Its okay. Everything's alright, I'm right here." and it is.
he is human. trying to figure out things, when he does, back him up.

I'm in the mood for cupcakes. Will you get one for me ? :3

HAH! loser

For someone who owns a blog, I sure talk about someone else a lot in them.

I guess I got no life to talk about.

Years more of...waiting

Here are some pics I took at Pustaka ;)

He pass his jpj test. I'm proud. He should take me out sometime. Ouuh I miss him so. I mean, we're together for like 7 months now but never gone out with each other. I'm not complaining. His family doesn't know about me, except for his brother and mom. Well, wait, I don't know about his sister, she knows my number and its scary to get a text asking to stay away from Wafi a little before we're having our Percubaan. His kakak scares me lah.

Why oh why is his phone messed up again? I miss the conversations, the part where nothing else matter except for us. Now, he's just busy. I miss the honeymoon phase. Jom pegi honemoon? :P I heard he jogs daily now. I miss jogging at Pustaka. Why didn't he jog there when I was still there?

Anywayy, when will SPM result some out?! I'm freaking out here. and I can't wait to go to school (shocking, I know) , to get the result and see him. I wonder what has all the jogging and bola tampar done to him :)))) heeeeeeee