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me : *takes out laptop and goes online*
Alissa : *on her bed* whatchadoin' angah? fb?
me : Nope, checking my applications for Universities online. *continues looking at screen*
Alissa : *quiet* *pulls blanket over her head*
me : *looked at Alissa* why are you so quiet?
?
*pulls blanket*
Alissa : *sobbing* you're leaving already?
me : no, not yet but I will. why?
Alissa : I don't want you to leave yet.

I hugged her.

Its strange, I mean, I never thought she'd actually cared if I go anywhere. Then I realised I never gone anywhere further from her, my family, for more than a few days.

We're always together. I'd hugged her at night when she had nightmares and maybe when she has problems going to bed. Even when we slept somewhere else, at a hotel, at my grandparents' house, I'd be hugging her at night, cause she sometimes has problems sleeping at new places.

Along was always the one going to boarding school and now she has no problems being away from us. but me ?

me : Its okay, Along will be back before I leave.
I promise I'll call every week, okay?
Alissa : um, okay .

Babysitter

If things go nothing like you planned, maybe God has another better plan for you.

Pedas

Ummi asked if I'm making the right decision, choosing Vet as my career path.
I said Yes.
She wasn't being supportive. I don't know for sure, alright? Stop second-guessing my choice, please.
But what if I'm making the wrong decision, can I restart the game?

I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I'm scared of the future. I'm not a perfectionist but I hate it if my life is not according to what I planned. I don't have the full sketch to my plans but I have the rough idea to what I want it to be like. Basically, its like most of you would plan.

Study in some University
Graduate and get a decent job
Have a stable economy income
Buy a house
Get married
Have kids
Go to Mecca
Grow old with the people you love

But thinking that the future is not in my grasp is just terrifying, don'tcha think? Maybe I'm focusing to the wrong part of the plan now. Get your head in the game, Nora. You can do this ! Life wont fail if you don't give up.

Psychic

I remembered, I played a little game in my mind. Whenever I miss him, I'd look at my phone and count to three. and wished he text me. It worked before, when he did text me, I smiled. It was as if he was psychic, and knew I needed him. It made me so happy just thinking that someone is there for me. I didn't actually told him, "I just thought of you !" That will make me sound like a stalker much. haha

DON'T EVER SAY THAT I HAVE TO FIND OTHER GUYS. I WANT YOU, YOU PROMISED ME. I DON'T CARE IF YOU SAY YOU'RE NOT SUCCESSFUL IN THE FUTURE, WE'LL GO THROUGH IT TOGETHER. I LOVE YOU.
NEVER LEAVE ME :'(

7 atau 8 tahun lagi yea ?

Wafi, if you're reading this, go get a few 50 sen, go to a phone booth and call me lah ! pleeeeeease.
dah kalau tak dpt contact me dgn cara lain. haha

I don't care if you think your result is like shit. Its still great to me, your addmaths is like freaking great.
I love you no matter what.
bersyukur je that you didn't fail any subject.
I'm still proud of you.