When I need you the most

I can't say I'm sad or angry. Just that, it never occurred to me that I could feel angry at someone but I just couldn't express it to that person. I'd cry, I'm so weak. Pathetic. Toughen up, Amelia! Stand up! Straighten up that back bone.

And the worse part of all, I can't tell anyone about it. 

Never enough

Names

He was being so adorable. 

Tiba-tiba gave me a link, 

then we began telling each other which one do we love.

He made me smile, he made me laugh.

I love you. I haven't told you enough. 

late-to-be-early,

amelia

F-bomb

I said goodbye to facebook and tried to sleep but that didn't happen. I'm to messed up to do my assignment. So lets update this blog?

Here's just to share my first time to say f*ck out loud in public. I know you'd say its so inappropriate for young girls to say curse words. I remember walking to my classroom from somewhere but when I was about to enter the class, Madey startled me, I guess. and out goes the f-bomb. Idk why I was pissed that day, but yeah I was.

To tell you the truth I say it in my mind a lot, just to add emphasise on my sentence. Which isn't a good habit. so everyone, wash those potty mouth. Seriously, you can't have little sisters hear that. They'll tell mom and you'll lose their faith forever. Well, maybe not forever lah.

The only bad word that is allowed is 'stupid' in my household. Which is still not very nice, I guess?

Materialistic

I'm sorry.
Its not really my fault that I need a lot of stuff. I don't know why there's just no more content in my life. Dear God, help me go through life without wanting anything. Maybe I should hypnotize myself ?

Just this once, may I have the FUJI INSTAX MINI 7S? with its MACRO LENS and its LEATHER BAG? PLEAAAASE? and I want to use my own money, just let me pleaseee?

the incontent

MUET OH MUET - examination

Tomorrow would be the day me and the rest of Kolej MARA Kulim take MUET EXAM (for listening, reading and writing - OH GOSH).

I'm having another panic attack. 

Really. Help, pray for me. 

the insanely panic amelia