The tip

" Assalam, Nora. Sori la ek akak ada terbaca post nora dgn sue n kak az. Akak ingatkan nora dgn sue mmg dpt vet kt umk. Nora nk buat rayuan ek lepas dah masuk sini.? Cani la kan, akak nk bgtau, nora memang betul2 nak ke masuk sini.? Result matrik dulu mcm mana.? Akak nak sarankan, kalau memang nora nekad nak masuk sini, jgn tunggu lepas satu sem ke, satu tahun ke.. Nora datang sini dgn family, buat appointment dgn dekan vet, Dr. Azam. Jumpa dia secara personal, appeal dgn dia. Buat rayuan terus2 depan dia. Jgn ikut cara manual ke surat2 tu semua. Macam tu susah nk dapat.

Akak tau sbb byk classmate akak buat cmtu. Diorg bdk2 diploma yg result tk berapa ok, tp sebab diorg merayu, jumpa dr Azam, diorg dapat masuk sini. Tapi akak ckp awal2 la, dr Azam ni scary sikit. Kena berani depan dia, kena confident. Kena yakinkan dia betul2. So skrg Nora decide la. Nasihat akak, course vet ni ssh. Hence once you decide to be in, there's no way out from here. No giving up, no walking away.  "

Thanks akak Aliya Ros. and Sue, if you're reading this, JOOOOM JUMPA DEKAN VET. Fighting!

Rain Rain Go Away

#currently listening to Missing Piece by David Choi

I accidentally sang out loud (quite loud) without remembering that I'm not alone in this house. Abah belum pergi kerja. I mean, I get it that he just came home from Lebanon on Tuesday. and he didn't go to work yesterday, tapi hari ni? Tak kan tak pergi jgak? Er, whatever.

Its raining, but by the time the kedai-kedai runcit buka, I will go and photostate these sijil and stuff for surat rayuan. Jyeah! Semangat baru, man! haha *gila apa

Gonna feed the animals in the zoo now. Taaa.

*when I say the 'animals', I meant my (8) cats

The singing zoo keeper,

Amelia

Bersyukur

I recite Surah Yaasin so I could relieve my anxious unease mind. Then I read the translation in which I came across one ayat ...
Ayat 73
"....mengapa mereka tidak mahu bersyukur?"

That one sentence slap me hard on my face. I guess I was still wasn't being grateful that I didn't get what I wanted. But a thank you is a must even though it is not what we want.

"Allah nak uji angah lah tu, nak tgk kalau angah bersyukur dgn semua pemberianNya." -Ummi

Allah loves me, thats why He puts me in such state. I shall be a better muslimah. One who will witness more and more obstacles but will fairly see it all as blessings :)

*sorry for the English terbalik, I watched Shakespeare in love just now.

methinks tis a fair play ;)

Amelia

Rant

I don't talk to my Ummi about everything. I mean, I told her about not getting Vet and such. but I didn't talk to her about Wafi. Unless she started asking about him, then I'll have to tell her lah. I managed to tell myself that I CAN DO THIS, I can study Animal Husbandry aaaaaand get to be a Vet later. I AM NOT GIVING UP ON MY DREAM.
All of my friends help out with that part of my problem but I don't know, I'm still in denial with the whole Wafi thing.
Then a voice in my head said,
"Tak pe~ ada hikmah. We are still in contact with each other and stuff. Its not like he's leaving you for some other girl. He's focusing in his studies. You want him to be successful, kan? So, get over him lah, focus on what YOU want to do now."

What do I want? Do you know what I want when I got for UPM last time? I want to go there, but Ummi showed me a PPKS UMK flyer and asked me to apply. I applied. Then, Ummi and Abah opposed to my idea of going to UPM Bintulu.
So I listened to them, siapa nak menyusahkan parents, kan? Here I am, bekas  pelajar PPKS UMK. In which UMK said, kalau dpt 3.5 ke atas, I can apply for Vet. Skrg dah dpt 3.5 pun tak dpt Vet jugak. I feel cheated and betrayed.
Ummi marah, Abah marah. They said, "Baik study kat sini je!" and "Nanti mesti jadi cikgu jugak macam Ummi, bkan boleh dpt kerja sgt dgn degree animal husbandry". I was thinking, "You guys made me go there, kenapa blame me?" I didn't say that out loud. I just hate that they're blaming me. Stop blaming me for being so imperfect and so stupid. All I do is listen to you! I don't want you to blame me. I trust with UMK so that I didn't even think to apply for upu again. Kalau apply, at least I can change my career path and be some sort of Statistician or anything related to Math.

Please. I lost a place to rant on stuff. I don't have someone I'm familiar with to talk to anymore. 

Whatever. I'm gonna appeal for Vet. Let me breathe.

Never okay anymore,

Amelia

The silver lining behind THIS cloud

The more I think about it, the more I believe that Allah has planned all this all along. Who am I to object? So I began listing down all the good things I will when I continue my studies at UMK.

1. Allah tak nak aku boros. Kalau duduk kat Pengkalan Chepa ambil Vet, dekat je dgn bandar. Temptation to shop is high, walaupuan takda byk benda kat Kelantan. Skrg ambil Sains Peternakan, blaja kat UMK kampus Jeli --very, very far from town. Jimat duit simpanan! :D
2. Most of my friends will be studying at Jeli too. Kalau nora tiba-tiba putus harapan, I have them to back me up and puuuuuussh me to success. Haha, I love you guys <3
3. Ada Along kat Jeli. Its a good thing lah. Kalau nak balik, dapat lah naik bas sama-sama. kan? I seriously don't know the way to travel in small small secluded area like Jeli. Err, call me city girl but I never fall too far from town area. I can DO this!
4. Along took the same course as me. Which means, I can ask her to teach me stuff~ Like, so that I can score high pointers so I can transfer to Vet course for next semester. Okay! I am roaring ready to reach my DREAM!
5. 
   

I'll rack my brain again later for more BENEFITS/GOOD THINGS. To be continued. Watch this space, mmkay?