Sick and Beyond

I was 5 or 6 days sick. I got the flu, I guess. Demam tiba-tiba. 

Okay, demam on bulan puasa, what can it do to ya?

At first, kurus lah. You are not in the mood to eat and when its time to break my fast, you are still not in the mood. But I kinda envy when I look at my sister eating her chicken during berbuka, when I'm barely eating the murtabak. Nonetheless....

The result is something I loike:  Pipi kurang tembam, tummy is flat :DD

I slept the whole five days straight and not doing anything else beside going to the bathroom and watching our new installed Astro Beyond. Yes, be jealous. I love playing with the remote control, 

rewind~~~~~fastforward~~~~~ 

Anyway, does anybody know why our temperature rise when we have a fever?

Amelia

M.I.A.

Reason for M.I.A. : I have no reason to live.

Kidding, kidding. I'm just messing with ya. Well, I was MIA from blogging 'cause I was at my Nenek's house for the weekend. No internet which means we were playing Saidina with Alissa.
Disconnect to Connect.




I create a text and erase it again. When I reread it, I felt silly and stupid. I hate feeling stupid.

But when I have the guts to press send, I realised I don't have prepaid. Gaaaah.
I'm upset and happy at the same time. I could've been this weak girl who tries to kacau her ex.


Please don't say things like, "Just leave me when you found someone better than me"  :(

Comparisons are easily made once you've had the taste of perfection.
You said move on, where do I go? I guess second best is the one I will know.

Dush

*totally NOT crying right now.

No, I'm not in denial.

No, I can handle this.

Yes, I'm smiling.

Its okay, I'm always like this. 

The one who can't really step up and be strong.
The one who can't raise a voice just to be heard.

Have some confidence lah.
Confidence is not a character you are born with. You have to build it up yourself.  Build a really tall wall so kebal that it wouldn't fall. But if it does, you don't lose anything. Then, you're just gonna be the coward self you are.

Double Dush,

Amelia

Note to self

" Rasulullah bersabda,“Hendaklah kamu bersungguh-sungguh dalam perkara yang memberi manfaat kepadamu, mintalah pertolongan dari Allah dan jangan kamu merasa lemah. Jika kamu ditimpa sesuatu, janganlah pula kamu mengatakan, “kalau aku berbuat itu dan ini, nescaya jadi begini…”. Sebaliknya katakanlah, “itu adalah ketentuan Allah dan apa yang Allah kehendaki pasti akan terjadi”. Sebenarnya perkataan ‘kalau’ itu membuka pintu kepada perbuatan syaitan.” (Hadis riwayat Bukhari)

Allah dah bagi yang terbaik.. :)

Yang terbaik tidak bermaksud yang kita mahu..

Juga tak semestinya yang tertinggi..

Tapi ketentuan ini inshaAllah boleh jadikan kita insan yang lebih baik.. :) "

From Ayu Fazlina's status update

I need to read this again over and over again so I could remember and it becomes a part of my soul. 

Tak susah. Tak susah.

Like feathers

Ever feel like...

everything you ever wanted is there,
right in your hand
Its light as a feather. The lightest ever.
And you grip it very tight so it wouldn't fly away. 

But you also have the things that you hate, and held it in your other hand

Its sticky, like the times you accidentally touch undry glue

Oh, you tried shake it off, flapping your hand up and down

It wont come off. Stuck.

you began collecting all the things you want
and try to get rid the things you don't

one hand open, one hand closed

the more you have the feathers, 

the easier it is for it to fly away

one feather flew, you grief upon

reaching for it, another one goes

Then you have none.

But full of sticky stuff on the other hand

Amelia