Cookie crumbs on my bed

I have a theory that my smiling muscles are not working any more. I have smile a lot less than before. I'm starting to worry even more when I realise that I always kerut dahi at a lot of things now. I don't wanna mold my face into that. Lines and wrinkles. I have difficulties in letting go, even to the smallest bits that had never mattered before. What is wrong with me?

And lately I have this very heavy hurt feeling on my chest and it got worse when I think contemplate on things. I should stop now.

Amelia

Telenovela

Hola.

No, I'm not taking Spanish next semester. Wish I could. Wish this university would offer it. But hey, if you really want something, you should go for it. Thus, I shall have an attempt in learning Spanish, off the internet, or whilst watching telenovela or even go buy a language dictionary on it. Hmmm.

I've watched telenovela before. If you guys remember back in 2000 or 2001, there's this telenovela called "El amor no es como lo pintan". I just googled that. haha. It means, Love is not as it looks like. Baru tahu maksud -____-

Anywayy, my Nenek loves watching all that drama! Besides, it was actually Malay dubbed. Though it seems weird listening malay words coming out of a latino woman. I always accompany her, watching it, helps in conversations. 

I've also watched Lus Clarita about an orphan (watched this with Along everyday after school with milo ice cream ummi made). and another telenovela called Catalina y Sebastian. 

Tak ingat jalan cerita but I love memorising the titles. Especially the long ones. haha.

I can't even watch Youtube now that the faculty has limited the internet access and block Youtube contents. Why must you take away the things I love? OHWHYY.

I want to pronounce words correctly. Hey, do you know that pronunciation is spelled with a U, not an OU? Its pronUnciation. I think spellings are great. Yes, I'm a nerd. A dork. I have 'anak cikgu' syndrome. Talk to you more about this Anak cikgu syndrome later. 

Hasta la vista,

Amelia

VLOG - VIDEO LOGS? Whaa?

I know someone is waiting for me to post something in my blog because it has been so long since I had. (Should that sentence end with Had or Have? I haven't taken English classes for 2 semesters now. I miss that. My sentences has a lot of grammatical errors now. Ugh /)

Anywayy, I realise that most of my post are actually what my thoughts for the day. But you know, I kinda have thoughts and wish that I could blog about them right away, and then I forget about it and the thoughts drifted apart. Oh wow, that is a long sentence.

So, after seeing so much of MorganPaigeLoves in Youtube, (I'm not trying to copy or anything but yeah, I might try Vlogging). I don't know the function of that bracket -___-

I was thinking, you only lived once and why not trying new things, I mean, you might end up liking it. Do not limit yourself. But you know, its like, I can sense that I will have awkwardness in front of the camera or webcam. I don't like my voice being recorded, I will probably sound like a cartoon character. I'm gonna break the walls between my awkwardness and embrace it. Hell yeahh

I will try this! Its gonna be great. S'well. I think it will be a good idea to try it on my 20th birthday which will be on October. I'm not sure if I'm brave enough to post it in Youtube. I don't know if its safe enough. I still have that paranoia in me. I know I told Wafi that I've surpassed that. But I guess it still has itsy bits in me. I guess that means that I will have tons of video updates in my notebook folder and if it crashes, all the video updates will be gone. Perish. Forever.

OHMY. I have to post it in Youtube. Or I could still save it in my external harddisk. But then when people copy stuff from it, people will see it. NOOO IMNOTREADYYET.

Lets just hope that my precious notebook will not crash and die unexpectedly. Then maybe if I don't plan posting it on Youtube, I would probably save it and have my children watch it (when I have some lah). It will be like HIMYM but without the storytelling because I have my videos yeay.

But do not worry, my fellow imaginary readers, I will still continue to blog here. Maybe. I don't know what future I will have~ Boo~ spooky

Amelia

End transmission !@#$%

1st June Study Week

The cost of living in Kuala Lumpur is basically expensive.
Zalim: meletakkan sesuatu bukan pada tempatnya.

We were eating out, at Sri Hartamas. In which we had just arrived from Kelantan. Me and Along went to perform our Maghrib prayers.
"Awak, lpas kita solat kita kena bgtau Abah. Wajib. Tanggungjawab kita tau."
After that, we told Abah. And I'm glad I did. Macam Alimin kata, buat apa nak malu kalau apa yang kita nak bgtau adalah something yg baik. Malu tu boleh, tapi malu bertempat.

Ya Allah, banyak ilmu baru aku pelajari dari insan2 luarbiasa Kelab Nutrisi ni. Thank you Allah sebab jodohkan aku dgn Kelab Nutrisi. :)

-Amelia

Measures

I do not wish to have happiness to be tied up in another person. I am happy as I decide to be. I want a bittersweet life. One where I would be able to cry when I remember sad. Then I would be able to smile when I remember happiness. There should be a balance to it.

I want a switch button. ON OFF whenever I feel like it. Or maybe a limit to how much I switch in a day.

That would be helpful if I feel like moping the whole day.