Choice or Chance?

What determines our destiny? Is it our choice? Or by chance?

In my almost 20 years on earth, I often think that choice determines or fate but as I ponder more, chance has the joystick to this game of life. The part where I get this animal husbandry course instead of Vet, me meeting Wafi, me even moved to Kuching in my Form 3. Most of it is determined by chance.

Sometimes we tried our best but somehow we end up having the crappy controller. In which we have to learn its ways to get better; be better. I mean, we don’t always get our ways but we just have to be flexible and be the best that we can. Why dwell on things that aren't worth to converse over? A healthy discussion would mean having 2 or more people throwing ideas and thoughts on things. If not, it would just be a monologue. Thus, the monologue could be positive or negative, depending on how full is your glass.

I realised I somehow become the glass-is-half-empty-kind of person. Which is not good. Not good at all. Where does all of this negativity is coming from? I used to be the neutral type with a pinch of positivity and smiles. Now I'm in the scale of everything-is-not-good-enough. Ugh, ungrateful much?

I need to flip that switch.

First step? I have to be aware on what face am I putting on. If I am having the frown face, I just have to remind myself to smile, even if it’s not entirely sincere. Being polite is superior to being sincere. But I'm not saying that being sincere is not vital.

Having sincerity is the key to making everything better. I try to be as honest as I can when I'm talking and even writing here in the blog.

I need to get my creative juices going. Ps; I miss you.

Blerggghh

If you don't know how to pronounce that title up there, try making a puking sound. Yeah, thats it.

Sorry that my blog has been kinda blerggh lately. Its not that I don't miss writing here, its just that I have a lazy bone that is just too obese to get this acer connected to the internet. So now that I've shaped up that lazy bone, I might as well take care of this blog huh?

I've been writing/typing a lot in microsoft word, just not here. Lemme just post those pending words right away.

Stay tuned. In ponytails, with pants and white Angry Bird t-shirt. -____- I am such a dork.

Semester 3

My third semester started off okay. I have not-so-packed classes, thus, more time for studying and go to club meetings. I can have my debate meetings and my nutrition club in peace. New resolution for this semester?

• To be more organised in terms of my study area, my bed and my locker. Last year was a disaster. Probably because we were crammed up in a 2 people bedroom with 4 people living in it. I was suffocated. Plus, I don't know where to put all my stuff since space it very limited.
• I want to score better. As in, more than 2.5 PNGS. Heck, gimme more than 3.5 please. Hopefully, I wont disappoint Ummi again. 
• Learn German. Whoot.

More later,

Amelia

THBT IKBP should be an annual event :)

In spirit of being the commitee member for IKBP 2013, I would say, despite being oh so very new at hosting a debate tournament, UMK did a good job. Thanks to our very own founders of UMK Desperate Debaters. Fert, Kak Lavan, Kak Shiyam, Kak Martina, Kak Hema, Colin. And of couse Kak Veron, even if she couldnt be there during the tourney.

As for personal experience, I would be the one in the TABS room, which isnt that much work anyway. The perks? I get to be in the same rooms as the core adjudicators. Meaning; they know me. Wekk.
Im new at this debate stuff but begin to notice familiar faces that alwaaaaays win the tourneys. After the tournament ends, the chief adju would be posting the TABS in Malaysian Debaters group in fb. That would be the most appropriate place for you to find your competition and to look for any tournaments available. Note: you will be stalked! What's TABS? the score sheet and the speaker's scores.

I like to debate. I just havent found my voice yet. I will. Soon. Being with the awesome UDD, it has been a wonderful time. Hope we'll be better in the next IKBP.

hmm. Here's a thought though; why would you even debate,  because when after the debate is over, no action is done? I couldnt understand the dire need to that. It will be all talk and no action. In both Asian Parlimentary style and British Parlimentary style, it will take up about 56 minutes per debate round. 7 minutes per speaker. And after the verdict, telling which team has the better arguments, its not like the ideas and arguments are being supplied to the gov to really make the country a better place to live in. Sure, variations of arguments and discussions will be thrown into the debate but the point of all that? Please clearly explain this to me.

With this motion, I gladly propose.

Hapuslah

There's just a lot going on lately.
Sometimes you feel like you're in a bottle. You can't go out. There's no escape.
Ramadhan ke tak,
Ya Allah, lindungilah diri ku, keluargaku dari gangguan jin, syaitan serta iblis.