Macam ni lah

I have this uneasy feeling where I kinda feel like crying for no apparent reason.

and this happens every time a day before my first exam paper. Is this some sort of an anxiety attack? I'm a passive aggressive, does that mean I passively have anxiety attacks too? I mean, when other people have this sort of panic attack, they'll be all, "I can't do this, I'm gonna die. I'm too scared." and stuff like that. Maybe my form of panic attack would be the silent one, where I'd be alone, trying to calm my nerve-wrecking soul. And end up crying.

I need a hug.

Thank you.

Breakthrough, finally.

I may or may not be able to say things the way I wanted but I will always try to have the message across.

Dear Nora Amelia,
This is not something new that you hear. But it's something new that got through you, finally.
At times, you will feel like giving up but you find strength and courage to overcome these little fear of failing of yours. Sometimes you hear the same thing again and again yet it meant nothing. It wasn't because that the presenter himself was bad at sharing his or her experiences. Sometimes it means that you are not even trying to understand the important parts in life.
Sometimes it is not even directly given or shared to you. Sometimes Allah wants us to observe everything and take a deep breath and just understand. Allah had showed us a lot of things in life. Ya Allah, banyak sangat cara yang Engkau cuba sampaikan nasihat serta tunjuk ajar. I'm sorry I never really listen before.

Thus, oh dearly self, I hope you'll be better at observing, understanding, learn and eager for more.

Amelia

Sejuk sebelah

The other day, I went to donate my blood. Due to people coming from this hospital. I know I shouldnt be upset at all. Bukan rezeki nak derma darah. I made a mistake of  complaining about how bad the services are. I should have just reported to the portal hospital thingy.  Nak complain kat orang bukan dapat apa2. I mean, after doing so, at least the hospital could tryyy and improve on things that lack. as in...experiences. we are not some lab rats that you could just test on.

I got a blue hand that could not function well for an hour plus during that hour, my right hand was very cold. You could really tell the difference of my sudden body temperature drop.

Lesson learn from this, hmm act! dont just say and complain and cry. ugh. Plus, be careful of where you want to donate your blood. the hospital that came to my institute had experienced nurses but in other fields but not in taking blood. hmm. I heard the MA told them,  "praktikal ni tak macam teori."

I could have lost an arm if they didnt stop the drawing of blood. they lupa to longgar the pressure thingy. mmg lah no bloodflow.  =__=

sekian terima kasih.

Daily Reminders ...

"Sunyinya takda earphone. Takdapat nak dengar lagu"

-Haih bayangkan ada orang kat luar sana pekak. Mereka takdapat dengar. Syukurlah kita ada telinga berfungsi dengan baik.

Tiba-tiba dapat berita dari kawan yang ada 2 orang pelajar UMK mati lemas. Innalillah. Both of them are my age. 

Berita Universiti (Official Pages)

Dua Penuntut UMK Mati Lemas Di Lata Renyok

Jeli, 15 Nov : Dua penuntut Universiti Malaysia Kelantan (UMK) Kampus Jeli telah meninggal dunia akibat mati lemas ketika berkelah di Lata Renyok, Jeli, Kelantan.

Kejadian menyedihkan itu diberitakan telah berlaku pada petang hari ini, Jumaat, 15 November 2013.

Dua mangsa berkenaan adalah Azem Sameer, 21 tahun yang berasal dari Klang, Selangor manakala seorang lagi mangsa dikenali sebagai Zulfikar.

Kedua-dua mangsa adalah penuntut Tahun Dua Jurusan Sains Pembangunan Produk UMK Jeli.

Menurut sumber, kedua-dua mangsa tidak dapat menyelamatkan diri setelah lemas ketika mandi-manda dan rakan-rakan lain turut tidak dapat membantu mangsa ekoran arus deras.

Jenazah kedua-dua mangsa bagaimanapun selamat ditemui dan dibawa ke Hospital Jeli untuk dibedah siasat.

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=604778882915525&set=a.318220661571350.74407.317556918304391&type=1&theater&notif_t=photo_comment

DariNYA kita datang kepadaNYA kita kembali. Al Fatihah.. Takziah buat kedua-dua keluarga mangsa.

Alhamdulillah, aku masih bernafas hari ni.

Keep Holding On

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Avril Lavigne