Proud

This semester’s final exam is like, much much better than last finals. This time, I have more time for me to study and to review. No more messed up days in study week or even exam days. Alhamdulillah I’m so grateful.

During exam week, me and Along went home and spent (just) two days at home. Huhu. Anyways, Ummi was about to throw out or give away her clothes when she has this burden to let go of them. For a girl who likes vintage stuff, I hop to the opportunity to try out the clothes. Obviously they fit nicely on me.

So, I promised Ummi that I’d take a pic of my outfit each day of exam so I could show her the clothes. Rasa macam fashion show tapi pakai sebab sendiri suka bukan sebab menunjuk. Basically, its exam week, no one would judge whatever it is that I’m wearing as long as its presentable.

Sejak dari kat Asasi lagi that I like to wear my Ummi’s clothings and say, “Ni baju mak saya”. Whee. Honored and very proud to wear those baju.

Can’t wait to wear Ummi’s next outfit. Hehe.

Yes, I'm silly.
Wait, no. I'm Amelia. (:

Europe

psst. wanna know a secret?

I have a dream of going to Europe just so I could walk their park, breathe their air and see the buildings. Here's another secret; I wanna go there just so I could wear those thick coats and cute boots. Kat Malaysia, tak sejuk. takboleh pakai. I know. its silly.

But its the truth and I cannot lie.

Germany, Paris, Italy, Greece (:

satu hari nanti. For sure.

Amelia

Macam ni lah

I have this uneasy feeling where I kinda feel like crying for no apparent reason.

and this happens every time a day before my first exam paper. Is this some sort of an anxiety attack? I'm a passive aggressive, does that mean I passively have anxiety attacks too? I mean, when other people have this sort of panic attack, they'll be all, "I can't do this, I'm gonna die. I'm too scared." and stuff like that. Maybe my form of panic attack would be the silent one, where I'd be alone, trying to calm my nerve-wrecking soul. And end up crying.

I need a hug.

Thank you.

Breakthrough, finally.

I may or may not be able to say things the way I wanted but I will always try to have the message across.

Dear Nora Amelia,
This is not something new that you hear. But it's something new that got through you, finally.
At times, you will feel like giving up but you find strength and courage to overcome these little fear of failing of yours. Sometimes you hear the same thing again and again yet it meant nothing. It wasn't because that the presenter himself was bad at sharing his or her experiences. Sometimes it means that you are not even trying to understand the important parts in life.
Sometimes it is not even directly given or shared to you. Sometimes Allah wants us to observe everything and take a deep breath and just understand. Allah had showed us a lot of things in life. Ya Allah, banyak sangat cara yang Engkau cuba sampaikan nasihat serta tunjuk ajar. I'm sorry I never really listen before.

Thus, oh dearly self, I hope you'll be better at observing, understanding, learn and eager for more.

Amelia

Sejuk sebelah

The other day, I went to donate my blood. Due to people coming from this hospital. I know I shouldnt be upset at all. Bukan rezeki nak derma darah. I made a mistake of  complaining about how bad the services are. I should have just reported to the portal hospital thingy.  Nak complain kat orang bukan dapat apa2. I mean, after doing so, at least the hospital could tryyy and improve on things that lack. as in...experiences. we are not some lab rats that you could just test on.

I got a blue hand that could not function well for an hour plus during that hour, my right hand was very cold. You could really tell the difference of my sudden body temperature drop.

Lesson learn from this, hmm act! dont just say and complain and cry. ugh. Plus, be careful of where you want to donate your blood. the hospital that came to my institute had experienced nurses but in other fields but not in taking blood. hmm. I heard the MA told them,  "praktikal ni tak macam teori."

I could have lost an arm if they didnt stop the drawing of blood. they lupa to longgar the pressure thingy. mmg lah no bloodflow.  =__=

sekian terima kasih.