Age

My sister just turned 24 today.

And guess what, I'm turning 23 in 10 months time. I can't believe I'm turning into those people who can't accept that they're growing a year older every year.

In addition to that, I'm in a relationship with a guy that's younger than me. A year younger but yet seem more mature than I am. How is that possible?

I mean, I don't mind that I'm older but I guess it does bother me a bit in the pit of my heart. The fact that he has more experience in life makes me feel like I don't have to worry much, though. We'll make it work somehow.

This is a short one but I'll keep on writing later. I miss writing here. Plus, its a new year and this blog's background is looking kinda old. Really need a make over.

Till we meet again.

-Amelia

New ?

On behalf of 1st January, I wish you all a happy new year.

We didn't celebrate or anything. Heard fireworks out the window but never peeked to see where it comes from. I guess its different now. But I was never the one to be excited on new years. I never waited for midnight for count downs. The most interesting part of New Years is the fireworks; yet I wasn't a slight excited for it this year. Why?

Kerja.

I slept on the sofa on New Years Eve. Fell asleep at 11.30pm and woke up brightly at 2am. What's wrong with my bio clock anyway?

Wait, did I say kerja? No, no. I meant, practical training. hah. No gaji no cuti. Don't do your LI here guys. You can't even go out after 7pm.

Tapi ada hikmah.

I found him.

I'm not trying to sound like I'm absolutely in love or something. But he's different.

This guy. He's not rich. He's not even model-face handsome. But I can see behind all that nakal act, he is nice and he knows what he wants to do in life. That's what I want in a guy; a guy with goals.

Don't get me wrong. Amir was the nicest most sweetest guy ever. I don't deserve him.
Amir pampered me too much that I didn't even bother to try to improve myself after terlebih manja. I can't be someone I want to be when I'm with him. Don't good relationships are supposed to be like when one encourages the partner to better themselves? Well, I hope with this Johorean I'll be able to be someone I want to be.

He already taught me to stick to my roots. Be humble. Be generous. Have plans in life. And make sure I stick to them. So, here's my own assignment to myself: Financial Plan and Life Plan.

Semoga dipermudahkan semua urusan akad nikah naik pelamin dengan Zaheir Al Bakry. Im not jumping into new relationships too fast, kan? Hmm. Kalau dah jodoh.

Talk to you guys later then.
-Amelia

IDOLA SAYA

I feel like I'm about to write a primary school's homework with that title. haha

I used to have an idol that I idolized. Well, that's what I thought of what an idol should be.

What is an idol? who? what makes someone an idol?

Its pretty subjective to say I guess.
oh btw. I'm not procrastinating, okay? I'm just getting my creative juices out so my writing will flow smoothly. haha.

What makes an idol - to me?
An idol
is someone who I look upon to.
someone who I can emulate.
Someone who teaches me individuality.
Someone who dares to be different.
Someone who knows how to have fun in doing what he/she loves.

I don't want to be fake.

I mean, I like a lot of icons or even people surround me that I can look up to. But none has all of those.
Can I just choose a few people and get out the best traits in them and write this report?

Lets see...
Can I say that  my idol is Avril Lavigne? Yuna?
I mean, I'm not like one of those fanatic extremist or fan girl.
But so far, I like how these different individual become one person with the same trait which is...they are daring to do the things they love. They chose their own path.

I don't wanna say that I love them because they sing great (which they do). But I wanna say that they don't have to be anyone else. They are comfortable in their own skin.


lets make a table shall we?
a table of which has a greater trait that i can emulate. because I doubt that my lecturer will let me write down 2 idols.


Avril Lavigne

• Loves animals
• has her own label
• got a few album
• fighting for a cause

Yunalis Zarai

• has her own label
• doing the things she love to do.
• found her passion
• has a fashion sense. a fashion icon and trend setter
• got a few album

I guess I choose Yuna!

Wheeeeee. I'm gonna have so much funnn. 

by 

Qasrina Amelia

Observe and you will see

Alhamdulillah.

I had just finished my assignment on a forum english script which is due on Monday. Allah had granted my wish that I once prayed;
"Ya Allah bantulah aku untuk menjadi lebih organised. Bantulah aku untuk manage time dgn lebih baik."

Tiba tiba
Allah gave me all these tasks all at once. I just became a JPP Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar in my kolej. With that, I have more responsibilities and more work at hand. Semester three has challenging subjects that need more quality work with shorter datelines. I had to juggle my time with bowling, which I just become wakil Kolej Komuniti in Negeri Selangor. we practiced bowling that needs 1 hour travelling from where I am.

For two straight weeks I had to sleep at 12am and woke up at 4am to finish my assignments and still have time for extra activities.

Macam ni rupanya Allah nak bantu aku untuk manage time dgn baik. Alhamdulillah.

It worked. this semester I bought a planner. I wrote down every important dates and events so that I wont get behind on any work. It helped sooooooo much. Lega sangat.

Then for last semester I prayed to be a good leader.
So for all groupwork I became a leader and get all these different group members. Some did their work but some would just test my nerves.

I had to be fair and had to do what I must do. Delegate task and give them early dateline so I could review before submission. Alhamdulillah for few a groupwork I got praised for handing in a neat work with all the needed objectives. I even got praised for a design I made for Senireka I subject.

So what is the point for this post again?
Yeah, when you have prayed to Allah, Allah will grant it in mysterious ways. You just have to learn to observe them.

QasrinaAmelia
and oh! I make printed kimono cardigans now. boleh laaa nak start business. May Allah ease everything. Pray for me. Love youuu (:

Curse or Blessing?

Oh Hi.
This feels awkward.
I'm an introvert, I get flustered and nervous easily around people I'm not familiar with. Malu nak tegur this blog sebab dah lama tinggal dia berhabuk.

So shall I begin to the last time I left you?

September.
I battled with my gut and my parents. I told EVERYONE that I might want to get into another school for fashion design. I might even consider going to a private one. heh. RM19000 just for a foundation? Then, a degree that's RM91000. uhm I'm not rich.

I was even gonna consider telling my dad, but he and I were never in good terms. I was like, nehhh, takpayah nak peningkan otak. But in my heart, I feel so sad that I couldn't continue else where and harvest my full potential.

October.
Semester 1 ended.
I got 2 weeks of holiday. Which flew by as fast as light. I had only 48hours more or less at home then I hopped on a bus to Kelantan just so I could carry my two boxes home to KL, and of course have an entire day with my friends. Oh I was happy seeing familiar faces and how time is just running out. Though I didn't get the chance to meet up with everyone, Seeing these faces make me extra happy.

November.
This was just a few weeks ago.
Start of a new semester. It became busier than my first semester here. I thought people there would catch up with the speed and do their work properly. But no, I feel trapped and as if I couldn't move forward anymore. These people ask me questions on how to help them on things, simple petty things that when I answer them, it feels like I've insulted them. These simple petty things to me are, something you can think by yourself, common sense wei. Somehow they don't have that kemahiran berfikir.
I even cried in the phone with Along because I feel stressed out that they keep on asking me these things and I can't even focus on my own thing to do. I said,
"I WANT OUT. I'M GONNA FIND ANOTHER PLACE TO STUDY. A PLACE THAT'S ACTUALLY MY LEVEL."

I can't do that, can I?

I'm not rich, plus I pull myself out of UMK, tak kan lah nak minta Abah support me financially in another place? Entah bagi entah tak.

I told myself, I need a fresh start. I need to see the positive side on this. Yes.

It only take that person to turn the obstacle into a curse or a blessing.

I had no real friends that I connected with. I tried to call Wafi and text him but he just seems so busy...like all the time. I  needed him but he wasn't there.

I kept on waiting but it seems like he wasn't interested in telling me whats going on in his life, just like how I was trying to do with him. We kinda drifted.

I broke up with Wafi.

That was that but we promised to be friends.

December.
New fresh start. I found my focus. a business for me to go on. Haven't started it yet but it will.

by QasrinaAmelia

How's that for a label? *angkat2 kening*