The Unsolved Issue

To whom this may concern:
In 2016 I'm trying to be more positive. I'm still in that phase that I'm still figuring out what I should do in life and how I'm still trying to improve myself.

But is my effort enough?

I'm one of those people that even though I do some 'sorting out and buang' old stuff, it will take me forever to be doing just a portion of those stuff. And I guess those stuff will still be there in the end. Thus, it looks like I didn't do any clearing up stuff.

Macam tak nampak pun perbezaan.

Just like what I'm trying to overcome right now;

I need to do more cooking, yes, niat:
Masak sebab...? Kena masak untuk diri, kena masak untuk suami, kena masak untuk anak-anak nanti, kena save money by cooking at home instead of going out to eat.

Dahtu kenapa tak belajar lagi masak? Ini penting okay.
Hmm. Honestly, idk why. I mean, I wanted to. Why is it so hard? Dah betulkan niat...Now, take action lah.

I need a plan, of what I should do....

I guess that I don't know where to start/

I guess that's why I'm still not married. Sapa yang nak wife takreti msaak. basic apa pun tak reti?

I know my apologies don't worth anything to you. But I just need to say that. Saya akan buat but it takes time,

I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment.
-Amelia

Age

My sister just turned 24 today.

And guess what, I'm turning 23 in 10 months time. I can't believe I'm turning into those people who can't accept that they're growing a year older every year.

In addition to that, I'm in a relationship with a guy that's younger than me. A year younger but yet seem more mature than I am. How is that possible?

I mean, I don't mind that I'm older but I guess it does bother me a bit in the pit of my heart. The fact that he has more experience in life makes me feel like I don't have to worry much, though. We'll make it work somehow.

This is a short one but I'll keep on writing later. I miss writing here. Plus, its a new year and this blog's background is looking kinda old. Really need a make over.

Till we meet again.

-Amelia

New ?

On behalf of 1st January, I wish you all a happy new year.

We didn't celebrate or anything. Heard fireworks out the window but never peeked to see where it comes from. I guess its different now. But I was never the one to be excited on new years. I never waited for midnight for count downs. The most interesting part of New Years is the fireworks; yet I wasn't a slight excited for it this year. Why?

Kerja.

I slept on the sofa on New Years Eve. Fell asleep at 11.30pm and woke up brightly at 2am. What's wrong with my bio clock anyway?

Wait, did I say kerja? No, no. I meant, practical training. hah. No gaji no cuti. Don't do your LI here guys. You can't even go out after 7pm.

Tapi ada hikmah.

I found him.

I'm not trying to sound like I'm absolutely in love or something. But he's different.

This guy. He's not rich. He's not even model-face handsome. But I can see behind all that nakal act, he is nice and he knows what he wants to do in life. That's what I want in a guy; a guy with goals.

Don't get me wrong. Amir was the nicest most sweetest guy ever. I don't deserve him.
Amir pampered me too much that I didn't even bother to try to improve myself after terlebih manja. I can't be someone I want to be when I'm with him. Don't good relationships are supposed to be like when one encourages the partner to better themselves? Well, I hope with this Johorean I'll be able to be someone I want to be.

He already taught me to stick to my roots. Be humble. Be generous. Have plans in life. And make sure I stick to them. So, here's my own assignment to myself: Financial Plan and Life Plan.

Semoga dipermudahkan semua urusan akad nikah naik pelamin dengan Zaheir Al Bakry. Im not jumping into new relationships too fast, kan? Hmm. Kalau dah jodoh.

Talk to you guys later then.
-Amelia

IDOLA SAYA

I feel like I'm about to write a primary school's homework with that title. haha

I used to have an idol that I idolized. Well, that's what I thought of what an idol should be.

What is an idol? who? what makes someone an idol?

Its pretty subjective to say I guess.
oh btw. I'm not procrastinating, okay? I'm just getting my creative juices out so my writing will flow smoothly. haha.

What makes an idol - to me?
An idol
is someone who I look upon to.
someone who I can emulate.
Someone who teaches me individuality.
Someone who dares to be different.
Someone who knows how to have fun in doing what he/she loves.

I don't want to be fake.

I mean, I like a lot of icons or even people surround me that I can look up to. But none has all of those.
Can I just choose a few people and get out the best traits in them and write this report?

Lets see...
Can I say that  my idol is Avril Lavigne? Yuna?
I mean, I'm not like one of those fanatic extremist or fan girl.
But so far, I like how these different individual become one person with the same trait which is...they are daring to do the things they love. They chose their own path.

I don't wanna say that I love them because they sing great (which they do). But I wanna say that they don't have to be anyone else. They are comfortable in their own skin.


lets make a table shall we?
a table of which has a greater trait that i can emulate. because I doubt that my lecturer will let me write down 2 idols.


Avril Lavigne

• Loves animals
• has her own label
• got a few album
• fighting for a cause

Yunalis Zarai

• has her own label
• doing the things she love to do.
• found her passion
• has a fashion sense. a fashion icon and trend setter
• got a few album

I guess I choose Yuna!

Wheeeeee. I'm gonna have so much funnn. 

by 

Qasrina Amelia

Observe and you will see

Alhamdulillah.

I had just finished my assignment on a forum english script which is due on Monday. Allah had granted my wish that I once prayed;
"Ya Allah bantulah aku untuk menjadi lebih organised. Bantulah aku untuk manage time dgn lebih baik."

Tiba tiba
Allah gave me all these tasks all at once. I just became a JPP Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Pelajar in my kolej. With that, I have more responsibilities and more work at hand. Semester three has challenging subjects that need more quality work with shorter datelines. I had to juggle my time with bowling, which I just become wakil Kolej Komuniti in Negeri Selangor. we practiced bowling that needs 1 hour travelling from where I am.

For two straight weeks I had to sleep at 12am and woke up at 4am to finish my assignments and still have time for extra activities.

Macam ni rupanya Allah nak bantu aku untuk manage time dgn baik. Alhamdulillah.

It worked. this semester I bought a planner. I wrote down every important dates and events so that I wont get behind on any work. It helped sooooooo much. Lega sangat.

Then for last semester I prayed to be a good leader.
So for all groupwork I became a leader and get all these different group members. Some did their work but some would just test my nerves.

I had to be fair and had to do what I must do. Delegate task and give them early dateline so I could review before submission. Alhamdulillah for few a groupwork I got praised for handing in a neat work with all the needed objectives. I even got praised for a design I made for Senireka I subject.

So what is the point for this post again?
Yeah, when you have prayed to Allah, Allah will grant it in mysterious ways. You just have to learn to observe them.

QasrinaAmelia
and oh! I make printed kimono cardigans now. boleh laaa nak start business. May Allah ease everything. Pray for me. Love youuu (: