Plan ahead?

I wonder why everyone around me is so smart?

I mean, like this guy from my school. I know he plays this RPG online but he gets straight A's for PMR and better result for exams in Form 4. Dude? He doesn't look like he's working his butt off to get straight A's. but how does he do it? and he is so NOT a Nerd. He has brains AND looks. yeah, ikr? *drop-dead gorgeous

This kept me thinking, I have Addmaths homework that hasn't been touch since the last day of school. and teacher wants us to hand in the homework on the first day next year. I'm not sure if I have time to finish it and get my life in order. it really is a mess now.

Plan? I don't usually follow when I plan things. Well, lets name the things to do on this school break. and hopefully I'll do something about it. I've wasted so much time already.

• Additional Mathematics Homework ( Important : finish this to avoid being strangled by teacher ;D )
  
• Workbooks ( I have to finish the Form 4 workbooks while I still have my textbooks )
• Gym? I am seriously NOT in shape right now. and ummi seems to enjoy bringing me there. HAHA
  
• Piano? Need to practice more at home. before SPM comes and I have no time to play it.
• update my wardrobe. Lets go SHOPPING ?
  
• pack my bags for KL *whoot

I'm going back to BSD from 17 Dec to 31 Dec. KL HERE I COME !
Lets watch New Moon together? my parents went to see it without telling me or my sisters. ;(

His return,

I hate it when parents said they know you so much. Well, THEY DON'T. Try being at home for a change. Try to get to know the kids and their friends. Let me get this straight ; You don't have a family just because you say you have a family. You only have a family when you make it as a family. Frankly, I'm living with strangers.

btw, Abah is home. but i liked it better when he's not. I mean, there's less argument when he's not around. I mean, I can't even talk to him. When he asks for something, a glass of water for example, I go get for him. but then he didn't even ask nicely. Which offended me. I didn't eat one whole day.

There were chocolates of course. but not the nice ones. Its the cheap chocs from the airport. It didn't change anything anyway.

ps; ada hari keluarga petang nanti. idk if i want to go or not.
pss; maybe going to a movie after the hari keluarga ends.

That unwished Birthday.

I mean, there is another way to have Abah back without hurting him. Well, I admit it. It was partly my fault for not wishing him a Happy Birthday.

On Monday, Abah went to KL without telling us. He texted ummi when he's already at the airport. He lied saying that he has some work there. We didn't saw it coming. I mean, I just don't think that he'll go away. Abah also told Ummi that he's sad 'cause a certain someone forgotten his birthday.

I remembered his birthday! just that I don't know what to give or say to him. And also because I slept late the night before and end up waking 1.30pm. by that time, Abah is at Golf. and he balik lambat. at the end, I didnt see him for the rest of the day.

Ummi remembered but she was still angry about all the things he did to Ummi. Actually, Ummi didn't wish him a Happy Birthday on purpose. Ummi gave up hoping that Abah would change. She tried several ways to get him to tell us the whole story. Ummi become a living dead after we know partly about the truth. but now, she's furious.

But maybe Ummi is right. Maybe Abah needed the 'alone time' to think about all what he did. and clear up his act.

Okay, I think that we all need to think about everything we did in a day. and make a better tomorrow. it could only take a minute to think about it. Its time to get that conscience get up and judge whether what we did is right or wrong.

I personally think that Ummi AND Abah need to push the arrogant away and start to have a heart to heart conversation. THEY'RE ACTING LIKE CHILDREN. I DON'T WANT TO BE THE GROWN UP HERE.

I can't take this anymore. When will he be back? and What will happen if he comes home?

Friday the Thirteenth

Bad Luck Day / Hari Permuafakatan

Hari Permuafakatan today but my parents are too busy to come. I don't blame them just because abah is no where near to Kuching and ummi has that meeting and her pengetua sekolah wouldn't let her leave early.

If only uncle Izhar was here. I mean, he's not my uncle. and he's not that old to be called uncle; he's only in his early 20's. I only call him 'uncle' 'cause he's my abah's staff workers from kem. If I call him abang Izhar, that would just be creepy.

Last year, he drove us to school everyday. and even when my parents couldn't make it to the report card day/hari permuafakatan, he's there to be my 'abah' for a day. btw, to be honest, he acts like a real father than my abah. He has that fatherly character in him. I don't mean to be rude, I mean, my abah is still my abah, but I just wished that he'd be more for us. and not somewhere else with some other people...

But this year, uncle Izhar is not around to go and take the report card with me. Dia dah naik pangkat, jadi dah sibuk lah kat department lain.

i miss him.