Awkward Raya 2012

First and foremost, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims.

This Raya made me wonder..Why do we celebrate Raya? What is the purpose? What Hari Kemenangan?

All I know is that its not supposed to be what I'm experiencing this Raya.

Kena bermaaf-maafan. I don't think I apologised with enough sincerity. I mean, tahun lepas mmg jejak kasih lah dikatakan. Macam anak branak dah lama dipisahkan pastu minta maaf sbb gaduh in the first place. But this year...mana semangat tu?

Is it really because you are growing older and that Raya magic suddenly goes away? No bunga api? No ketupat pulut? Is that it?

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*awal di pagi Raya*

Everyone wondered, "Mana dia? Nak salam raya pastu nak tangkap gamba keluarga ni."

"Oh, tadi nampak kat dalam kereta."

"Kenapa? Dia nak keluar ke?"

"Entah lah. Macam tgh tgk hp ke ipad ke apa tah dlm kereta tu."

*sampai rumah saudara nak beraya*

"Eh, tadi nak keluar kereta, ingatkan dia dah keluar jugak."

"A'ah laaa. Dia cari tmpat parking elok2 kot."

-bilaa dah lama sgt, baru laa dia masuk rumah saudara ni-

"Jauh sgt ke parking tadi tu?" *nada sindir* 

*dalam rumah saudara*

-saudara ajak bersembang, dia buat sombong-

What am I saying here? I don't know the correct term or the expression to say. 

I never like thinking bad about a person. 

Ummi pesan, tak baik buruk sangka.

If you are in my shoes, what would you feel?

bukan ke dah cerah lagi bersuluh?

What would you feel if that someone does that, described up there, 

and that someone is related to you?

Pastu cepat-cepat nak balik rumah. Bkn ada apa kat rumah tu. Ada ke?

Kesian nenek duduk sorang kat kampung. Apa salahnya kalau tinggal sehari lagi kat kampung nenek?

Dah sampai rumah, laju je keluar rumah.

I get it. 

Kalau tak nak raya dgn kami, JUST DON'T. 

GO AWAY. 

GO AWAY.

GO AWAY.

GO AWAY AND TAKE ALL YOUR STUFF. 

I'M NOT OKAY WITH THIS.

Latte late

I HAVE NOT ISI BORANG PENDAFTARAN N STUFF.

See how in denial I am?

No regrets

Yesterday I read my friend's blog saying that she'll be going to MSU instead of UMK. 

I was like, baruuu nak jmpa semulaa after being apart for so long.

Any who, GOOD LUCK, SHEZRYNA :)

We'll meet soon,

Amelia

The great listener

Hey readers.
I learnt something valuable for the past few days.

I learnt that where ever you are in the world, Allah can hear you. You just have to reach out for him.

And I've become a listener to 2 of my special friends. There were three special people in my life have problems but the other one didn't tell me. I don't mind. I guess he needs time and anyway, who's a better listener than Allah?

You just have to keep on praying so you'd get the best answer or closure from Allah. 

I have things going on too but sometimes you have to push them aside and keep quiet about it. Listen to what others have to say and even if you don't always come up with the best solutions, at least you can say that you're there for them.

*hugs* Don't be sad, okay? Allah has a lot planned out for you. You are one of the lucky ones, to be chosen to go through that bumpy road in life. You are strong enough to go through tomorrow. Maybe Allah wants you to live it and tell others how you've made it through. Then, wouldn't you be helping others when you have the experience to tell it?

I am here for you,

Amelia

Secretomundo

Along knows about me and Wafi and she panicked.
Why?
Suddenly she said things like, "kat Jeli tu byk laki gatal2. Haih, kalau awak ada Wafi, takdelah awak tersangkut dgn org sana. Alamak cmne ni?"

I'm like..its not like I want to be away from Wafi. and its not like I plan to like someone from there and get married. Haih. I'm gonna wait for Wafi. but if he's not waiting for me, its okay, I have faith in Allah.

and Im planning on keeping me being single as a secret. I mean, when I'm at university, I'll be saying things like, "Oh I'm engaged." and I'll be showing them my ring given by Ummi. HAHA. when I told Along about that, she said, "oh, bagus.". That will give away the attention. kot. Tak kan orang nak kacau tunang orang?

and there's this guy I known since darjah 3. We reconnected 2 years ago, I think. Through fb lah. tak pernah jumpa  pun. and he was like, "nanti nora dah single, nak jdkan Nora gf pastu isteri". Wekk. Tak mauuu. Takmau lah dia tahu. and don't u guys ever tell him, kaaaay?
He said it once upon a time ago. I was in a relationship with Wafi. Truly happy :)
and the guy chat with me on fb. I mean, if a person saw u online and chats with u, would u ignore it? I don't wanna be rude. So I replied short and simple to him. just so he'd get the idea that I don't wanna chat anymore. >___<

Nora dah ada someone lah in my heart. and his name is Abdul Wafi Bin Hj Othman. one and only.

But I don't know if I am in his heart. malu je kalau dia dah jmpa org lain. and tinggal Nora kat sini terkapai-kapai for him. OUCH?

I feel like I need the answer from him. Will you wait for me? Or are you already over me?

I hope Wafi doesn't read this blog anymore. Hmm, does he? If he is, he'll know I'm not over him. and my undercover as the Independent Woman will be blown. Gaaaaah.

David Archuletta's A Little Too Not Over You,

Amelia