Tepuk dada, dada kata sakit

Dada sakit.
I don't know if its the unholy stench of cigarettes that is already sucked into my lungs or if its the fact that certain someone has some nice profile picture on fb that my chest feels uneasy. *dgn nada sarkastik

Maybe its both. I'm trying to break my record of holding my breath as long as I can so that I don't have to even have a whiff on those silent killers aka cigarettes smokes.

Believe it or not, I'm living on a block that is as same as the guys' rooms. I mean, lelaki aras bawah, 1 dan 2 only lah. the rest of the block belongs to the girls. So, basically, bawah my aras is the guys. Usually late at night, they would smoke and the air just comes into our room through our window.

Tutup tingkap? Well, my room mate can't sleep if the room is too warm. Jadi, kita buka laaa tingkap just to let some breeze in. Even if the breeze includes the cig smoke. Haih, mana hak asasi manusia? Boleh apply kat sini tak? Apa kata kalau kita simbah air kat dorang tuu. *imagining* Hehehe but really, I'm not that cruel lah.

I should tell them off or something. Tak pasal2 kena sound balik nanti. Rasanyaaa senior yg smoking tuuuu. Siap promote kat fb saying that they're selling some cigs. Ew, tolong lah membanteras, bkn bg galakan kay?

Enough about that, berkenaan profile picture fb seseorang tu kan...bkn nak kata sakit hati or anything. We are not married or even in a relationship that's official, I know. I know. Tapi...

His dp tak pernah pun ada pic dgn me. Tahu, nanti kakak dia tahu, takdalah nak buat profile pic dgn kita ni kan. Tapi, dia tu? tak sama ke? tak menimbulkan kemusykilan ke?

I admit that I'm a bit jealous (or maybe pissed off)...just a lil bit. I feel like I'm being played. Tapi kalau org tgk aku marah pun, rasa mcm aku xserius. Muka ni tak pernah marah kot. Haih

Single but Not Available, huh?

I guess I am never that special. Perasan je budak ni. Aku tak layak, ya. Why would I even think that he'd give his time of day just to talk or text me? Hmm, lama tak dgr khabar. Nak bgtahu berita pun fikir dua kali, does he even care if I tell him?

But just so you know, I tried my best to let go of you.

Unworthy,

Amelia

Raincheck?

I know, I know. I told you guys that I'm gonna post things that happened yesterday. I didn't get the pics yet from my friend's camera. Tak best kalau takda gambar kan?

So, I guess you guys have to wait. Relax, tak best sangat pun. Saja nak build up the excitement. HAHA

I O U

Amela

Adventure Time : Pesta Konvokesyen UMK Ke-2

I am probably too tired tell you guys about my story for today. I mean, sleepy tahap maksima~
But let me give you a clue about today.

It involves Snakes, Blood, Walk, almost Fainted and Buses.

Hahaha, let me just leave you to that. I'll tell you all about it tomorrow, okay?!

and Oh, I survived. (mmg laaa, kalau tak mmg tak dapat nak post this on the blog O_o )

Amelia

My epigastric region is experiencing pain

Ever heard of this sentence?
Sometimes you see things that you want to see.

I don't know why, I keep seeing him everywhere. Last time when I was in Tanah Merah, out for shopping supplies, I saw this guy that looked like him. The guy pass by me while I was crossing the road to KFC. I knew it wasn't him. I mean, duh, tak logik if suddenly he appeared in Kelantan. Then I saw a guy in Kampus Jeli, macam dia. I was thinking, kenapa ni? What is wrong with me?

Then I reached to a conclusion that maybe this heart of mine is in cahoots with my brain, trying to make me happy and jump start excited for about 3 seconds whenever I think I saw him. But you are wrong, heart and brain, its not nice to take away that joy when you realise its all an illusion.

Dear heart and brain, are you trying to make me suffer? I know you meant well, but please stop with all this toying around. I don't know how to make it all better anymore.

I can't let all of this go until I admit this to myself: I do miss him. I've been denying it, in hoping that maybe I wont get hurt if I know that he doesn't miss me. Stupid silly me.

I'm sorry for being so cliché. But its the truth and I cannot lie.

Silly silly Amelia

The complications of staying awake

I had trouble with keeping my eyes open during my TITAS lecture today. Its not like our lecturer, Dr Mohd Nawi had started on our lesson or anything. Its was only introductory. Tanya nama, asal mana and stuff.

I think I should start taking my pills. -____-

what pill? This one~

Symptoms of anaemia - Pallor/ Pale looking, weakness, headache , breathlessness, dizziness and rapid heartbeat.

I should go get tests or something.

Oh, Prof Ibrahim wasn't in today. Tak jumpalah lagi dia. He was at this Merdeka Raya celebration. in Bdr Jeli.

Esok jumpaa lah, dgn Sue. 

Fighting!

Amelia