Wear where

Im creating an outfit in my mind for when I'm going out, when I'm out with family nanti.
I always do that, I don't know why.

Skinny jeans
Mini skirt
Denim Vest
Black t shirt
Black selendang // Blue pashmina (to match the miniskirt)
Wedges

Get the picture? Hmm, gonna try it out~ to see how it looks first.
haha kepala dah ingat kat rumah jaa

Dressing up, 

Amelia

Mimpi ?

So I celebrated Raya Haji at UMK. away from family, apart from Along. She blamed me for not wanting to go back home. But I want to go home too.

I was just thinking rationally, sebab kalau balik tiga hari ke rumah, ummi and family tak sempat nak duk kat kampung lama2 since we all kena balik awal before class starts. Okay, sng je kalau naik bas kat Perak kan? but then the reason my sister wants to go home is to have a look at our cats~ tak faham lah dia.
Lagipun on the 2nd Nov dah mid sem break for two weeks. leceh nak beli tiket lagi and naik bas lagi~

To tell you the truth, I'm just glad I don't have to sit in the bus for 8 painful hours again and again. Sekali naik bas balik dan datang pun dah cukup, kan?

Then on the weekends in my room in UMK, I got this dream about me driving (yea, ikr? I don't even have licence to drive.) I was driving and the car was a bit odd, because I was driving from the back seat. O__O

Next to me, in the odd car was Wafi. and we were somewhere in a Kampung area. I don't know where we were going but suddenly we came to a dead end. So I reversed. On my way out, Wafi recognized a girl, with long hair, t shirt and jeans. He seemed to know her. He opened the door and let her in. I guess we were heading the same direction.

"Siapa tok?" she asked Wafi, pointing to me. tanya pun macam tak ada adab -____-
He didn't answer. I was driving (HAHA), so I pretended like I wasn't listening.
"Slalu contact nya kah? Sayang ko kah?" she asked again
He still didn't answer.

And that dream ended just like that.

You don't know how weird and odd I felt waking up from that unresolved dream.

Maybe its because my conscience wanted to know what am I to Wafi. Indirectly, I'm asking him in my dream. and since it is my dream, I don't know Wafi's answer. That's why he's quiet in the dream.

So I guess if you ask for my status, I'll be answering "Its complicated." Because it really is complicated. I mean, I'm clear on Single but Not Available thing. At least we can be friends that contact each other once in a while. Macam Nurul dengan Aiman. They're not a couple but they go out with each other sometimes. kadang2 Nurul keluar dgn family Aiman pun ada. ^^

Blah blah blah

Its complicated,

Amelia

Cheering on for STPM candidates~

Haaaai ktk.
I'm not gonna post in bahasa sarawak because I don't want to pollute their language with my unprofessional usage of that language. ^^

I know I don't regularly check emails and this is the 21st century where no one even cares where the hell is the post office. No emails, no letters. Just this post, in which I hope you'll hear out and listen to what I'm gonna say. So here it goes...

Dear kitak,
I have never met anyone that's like you. You are this strong independent guy that cares about me. You are never the 'egomaniac' type which is good. Its really rare to find a guy that's humble enough to put aside his ego and let the girl wins when it comes to those silly quarrels we have.

You gave me hope and strengthens my faith when I am in doubt. Its not that I don't trust you there, its just that I have this huge fear of losing you. I know I don't have the best resume that could be presented. I don't know how to cook...yet. I'm not that intelligent. I don't mingle well with new people, as in I'm not a social butterfly. But despite all that, I care about you. and if that is not enough then I guess I am not qualified to even to get know you.

So for this coming STPM exam, I wish you all the best and I hope you'll excel well :) I believe in you.

Here's a cheer for youu, (the cheer derived from that day when PPKS UMK2 came to UMK) :

Go Wafi, Go Wafi,
Don't break my heart Wafi,
ummm chi ahh oh yeah
ummm chi ahh oh yeah~ (2x)
*pompoms*

HAHA I guess you don't know how the tune of the cheer really is, unless I sing it.

your cheerleader (perasan nak jadi cheerleader :D),

Amelia

Yoseob & Gayoon - If I Have A Lover

I first heard this song about a year, or maybe less than a year ago and I instantly say, ADORABLE. both of them, seriously. I looove this song mainly because when my friend showed it to me;

1. it has lyrics
2. it has meanings of the lyrics
3. it has a catchy tune

I have a thing where I don't like songs if I don't know what they're saying. So now as long as I know the meaning I'm all good :)

Baby baby baby, baby boo~

Amelia

Hear hear

Let me start this post with a simple 'Hi' because I have a feeling that this post is gonna be long. hihi
So, Hi everyone.

A lot has happened since last week. Let me start with my birthday.

Its not as awesome as 'wow supercalifragilisticexpialidocious birthday'. Nope, its kinda like having those bad things happen in one day but you don't want to look unhappy, so you smiled anyway kind of day. It brightens  up my day when I realise that even my not so close friends know my birthday through facebook. I think I'm gonna hide my birthdayy on fb so I'll know who really remembers my birthday date. ^^

So, wanna know what they throw out this year?
Biscuit
Nescafe
Baby Powder
in a bucket full of water.

Its kinda funny since that I never wanted to leave the room that night because I was dead tired and my friends dragged me out of bed anyway and went downstairs. They told me that Abang Zack is needing some help from us to be in the Kelab Kebudayaan. So I'm like, mmkay. Turun je la.

I worn my striped colourful socks with sandal and when Nurul saw it, she was like, cantik sgt lah sock tu. I'm like, oh ye ke? I didnt take the hint.

We were waiting downstairs for Abang Zack, in which he was not even really coming, then out of nowhere Ainaa came in with a bucket and washed me down with the mixture. I managed to flee for a bit but seriously kena my baju jugak lah. Wet to my underwear, hah. And thats how I smell like kuih raya and detergent.

It wasn't over, they asked me to play along until Tini comes, since it was also her birthday. So she was splashed too :O we end up running and chasing each other at midnight. Memang bising lah, I guess. Hihi sorry for our childishness~ tapi kami memang kanak-kanak riang :)


Moving on to my next point, ececeh bakal debater ni :P
That's basically what I'm trying to say, I'm a debater and I don't know how to debate. Aaaa.
The competition is on the 18th, 19th and 20th October.

If you think about it, I don't debate; I compromise :)

Am I fit enough to be a debater? I gagap a lot. Wait, no. I pause a lot. and I get more nervous when I have to speak using the mic.

I want to enter debating because it allows me to improve the way I speak. I want to learn how to project my voice loud enough so people can hear. I don't want to be misheard or lose people's attention when I speak. Because I never told anyone this but I don't like it when people started talking when I was still talking. Maybe its not intended..but I realise that they lose interest in what I'm saying because I talk like crap. I lack confidence. I am insignificant.

This could be a turning point.
Wish me luck, okay?

wipe my tears and kiss my forehead

Amelia