Breaking Down Goals

Life goals to become a Fashion Designer with my own label.
In....
5 years - Label with collection, a team of graphic designer, tailor, pattern maker and etc.
4 years - Complete a university degree in Fashion Design
3 years - Research on fabrics and materials to work with that is lightweight, iron-less, flowy
2 years - Successful dropshipper/agent (earn enough money to get a label)
2 months - have a scholarship on fashion design degree course.

Last days

If today is counted as the last days of my life, what would I do?
I mean, have I lived well?
Have I done anything that makes me happy?
Is this how it all ends? Is this how I wanted it to end?

Brands

Orang kata kalau nak jadi orang yang berjaya, kena jadi kuli dulu.
If you want to run a restaurant, then be the waiter or the help in the kitchen.

Just like if you want to have your own boutique and your own label, then work in a boutique , learn sewing techniques and get creative.

I really don't mind working for people. But the way they treat you is not acceptable. There are bosses who are really nice. But some is just blergh.

A good job is not with the highest pay. But its when you have a good boss.

Ingat ni. Tak kisah lah kau ni siapa, be nice and they will be nice to you. Simple formula. You get what you give.

Im done rambling, while waiting on the steps of a shop so I could work at a boutique upstairs. Im quitting in a week.

Simple. Kalau tak suka keadaan sekarang, ubah. Find other jobs, look for a miracle.

-Amelia

Jodoh

Kadang kita tak sedar kita terlalu taksub dengan cinta manusia dan kita lupa cinta Ilahi.
di situlah Allah mula menguji kita....ibarat nak kata;
" kenapa hangpa boleh sukakan ciptaanKu tetapi boleh lupa kepada pencipta sebenar?"

Kau ingat dengan cinta manusia kau boleh bahagia? Kau ingat dengan kejarkan dunia kau dapat tenang di akhirat?

Kau lupa.

Mungkin sekarang kau nampak dia terbaik untuk kau. Tapi sekali kau lupakan pencipta kau, sekelip mata Dia tarik semua dari kau.

Jodoh kita di tangan Tuhan. Jodoh kita berubah mengikut masa. Orang kata cari jodoh yang sekufu dengan kita. Dan kena ingat; iman manusia berubah ubah. Nak cari yang sekufu pun bila kita dah tetap iman.

Aku doakan agar engkau yang terakhir. Aku dah penat. Tetapkanlah jodohku.

The Unsolved Issue

To whom this may concern:
In 2016 I'm trying to be more positive. I'm still in that phase that I'm still figuring out what I should do in life and how I'm still trying to improve myself.

But is my effort enough?

I'm one of those people that even though I do some 'sorting out and buang' old stuff, it will take me forever to be doing just a portion of those stuff. And I guess those stuff will still be there in the end. Thus, it looks like I didn't do any clearing up stuff.

Macam tak nampak pun perbezaan.

Just like what I'm trying to overcome right now;

I need to do more cooking, yes, niat:
Masak sebab...? Kena masak untuk diri, kena masak untuk suami, kena masak untuk anak-anak nanti, kena save money by cooking at home instead of going out to eat.

Dahtu kenapa tak belajar lagi masak? Ini penting okay.
Hmm. Honestly, idk why. I mean, I wanted to. Why is it so hard? Dah betulkan niat...Now, take action lah.

I need a plan, of what I should do....

I guess that I don't know where to start/

I guess that's why I'm still not married. Sapa yang nak wife takreti msaak. basic apa pun tak reti?

I know my apologies don't worth anything to you. But I just need to say that. Saya akan buat but it takes time,

I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment.
-Amelia