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I'm starting to learn how to count again. Counting my blessings that is.
Being at home for the semester break have made me less grateful and the negativity is just overwhelming.

This is me trying to have a comeback to the writing world.

Next Monday will be my second semester in Fashion Design Degree. Alhamdulillah. Look how far I have been since my last update.

Over the semester break, I made a few garments. One for Along for her bridesmaid's kurung moden. One for Ummi's school batik uniform. One for her friend. 2 more for her friend's daughter. One for nenek, which I still need to adjust the hip area was a bit snug on nenek.
for a total of 2 months, I made 6 outfits.

Yeay

Not exactly a proud number but at least I did some, right?

Other than that, I ran my first half-marathon last January. That is my first 21km woo. I think I could go further after this. Maybe 48km will be in the list pretty soon.
But for now, all my marathon running have to be on pause 'cause I currently have RM21 left in my bank account.

I really need a scholarship soon. Abah and Ummi can't be burden by all this anymore.

All I could do now is to sell instagram accounts for a few hundred ringgits which isn't much if you think about my tuition fee being nearly 10k.

I need to change this.

-Amelia

Down.

Im in a depressed mode. What ever I don it seems like its never enough. I am not good at anything. I thought that I am but Im not.

Breaking Down Goals

Life goals to become a Fashion Designer with my own label.
In....
5 years - Label with collection, a team of graphic designer, tailor, pattern maker and etc.
4 years - Complete a university degree in Fashion Design
3 years - Research on fabrics and materials to work with that is lightweight, iron-less, flowy
2 years - Successful dropshipper/agent (earn enough money to get a label)
2 months - have a scholarship on fashion design degree course.

Last days

If today is counted as the last days of my life, what would I do?
I mean, have I lived well?
Have I done anything that makes me happy?
Is this how it all ends? Is this how I wanted it to end?

Brands

Orang kata kalau nak jadi orang yang berjaya, kena jadi kuli dulu.
If you want to run a restaurant, then be the waiter or the help in the kitchen.

Just like if you want to have your own boutique and your own label, then work in a boutique , learn sewing techniques and get creative.

I really don't mind working for people. But the way they treat you is not acceptable. There are bosses who are really nice. But some is just blergh.

A good job is not with the highest pay. But its when you have a good boss.

Ingat ni. Tak kisah lah kau ni siapa, be nice and they will be nice to you. Simple formula. You get what you give.

Im done rambling, while waiting on the steps of a shop so I could work at a boutique upstairs. Im quitting in a week.

Simple. Kalau tak suka keadaan sekarang, ubah. Find other jobs, look for a miracle.

-Amelia